Sunday, August 31, 2008 8:43 pm
you have to watch this in HIGH QUALITY.
it's so damn clear.
and no, they are not lipsyncing.
the video's a little off with the sound... meh.
but at 1m20s onwards to... the highlight of 1m28s!!!
dannehhhhhhhh <3
i'm in dannyland now. :}
and don't laugh, it's cute!
he's cute.
woooya!
have to go back to school tmr manxz.
Saturday, August 30, 2008 10:11 pm
9:40 pm
thanks to angella for providing me with the links to all these cool online stores!
i'm not a noob anymore!
this one is gorgeous! <3
can only look, no money to buy!
if only it were cheap enough, i'd design my own graphic tees and print them out.
that'd be one of a kind cool!
lol.
/random
7:59 pm
yes, so i have finished Breaking Dawn, about a couple of days ago now; and what you may read from hereon would possibly be spoilers.
so to prevent yourself from getting spoiled AND also to prevent me from getting a shit full of vulgarities in my tagboard,
THIS IS A WARNING!like whatever huh? ;}
so here is my analysis and thoughts after reading the book.
1. Commercialized;
yes, i feel that the book has been commercialized after being thrust into the limelight by the media.
it always happens.
i don't want to say more than i already have.
2. Happy Endings;
whatever happened to dramatic, tragic endings?! or perhaps bittersweet?
yeah, yeah, if i'm so good at saying things like these, i should write the book already.
this is ONLY an opinion okay.
3. Vampires and their sex life;
uh, hello?
it's kind of impossible to procreate right?
i mean, no blood... they shouldn't have sperm as well... no?
apparently edward is almighty, even in bed.
no wonder the girls are wanting him in their pants.
4. Renesmee;
just this--- smeyer could've done better naming the kid.
scarred her for life like that.
5. Anticlimax;
where was the action?!
400 over pages led to the Volturi arriving at the Cullens doorstep and NOTHING happened?!
what a load of bull.
you wasted so much of my time!
6. Jacob;
well, thanks for giving me more of him to relish.
he's well cute i think. :}
yea, i kind of lost all my debating points after i finished the book a long time ago...
so i can't say much.
dont want to reread it now too.
life's boring. and stinky.
Friday, August 29, 2008 11:52 pm
i forget, at times, of how it feels
to have a smile creep up on me
is it wrong
to not remember moments like these?
11:40 pm
i find it hard to write a line
without thinking first about you
of all we had
before this crushing feeling overwhelmed it all
it wasn't easy, believe me
i know it definitely hurt
but to forget
or rather, blissful ignorance
it quelled the pain
oh for just a short short while
but how sweet that was
to taste freedom upon my skin then
still, you had me transfixed
like an addict i was
i controlled not
my willpower bent, i needed you
i tried to stop myself, i did
but your pull still overpowers me
i am helpless, yet can't be no more
11:36 pm
abandon responsibility
live vicariously
get high
that's what the dreamers say
they are up in their little worlds
face it,
it's the real world out there
cold; oh freezing cold
i'm not being stupid
i'm not being pessimistic
it's just what it is.
period.
tell me what to do now
8:43 pm
i am feeling old.
like, seriously.
OLD.
tired, exhausted, maxed out, drained, OLD.
ugh, what an intimidating feeling.
i am supposed to be young, energetic, bubbly... everything a teenager is.
instead i feel old.
MUST BE LACK OF EXERCISE.
the one disadvantage of being in poly is that you NEVER get motivated to exercise!!!!!!!
which i totally hate, because i NEED the exercise.
i need the push.
without the force, i am nothing.
like, i'm literally stagnant.
such a horrible feeling.
just one day outside has robbed me of all my energy, sapped me of my vitality.
*exaggerated*
but i do feel tired okay.
anyhow, i went back to nh today.
such nostalgia... since its wet weather and all...
no i did not feel any sense of longing to the place.
i hate to say it but it's true.
i was unfortunately longing immensely to get out of the place.
the school i have resided for 4 damned years... makes me feel inadequate, insecure... all the things that i hope have diminished in me NOW.
i don't know.
i am sickly reminded of how inferior i thought i was, of how shy i was.
not that i'm saying i'm not shy now, but... better.
much better.
it's like a veil just gets draped around me when i entered the school.
the fear, the need to feel dependent on others...
i was screaming internally really to get out of the place.
how can i feel that way?
i should be happy to be back, shouldn't i?
i mean, school wasn't THAT bad...
well, i guess there were the ups and downs.
i sound so emo today huh?
i guess it's the weather and the exhaustion that's getting to me.
i shall stop here; i feel like a Dementor, spreading the cold and despair around.
hahaha.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008 9:34 pm
Tuesday, August 26, 2008 12:38 pm
Monday, August 25, 2008 2:20 pm
1:33 pm
McFly at the London Olympics 2012 Handover Party performing!
It was every bit of amazing and more!
Aren't they the best?!
Can't say how much I love them!
xoox
Sunday, August 24, 2008 10:37 pm
http://youniverse.com/mind/feedback/12ac041c59357ba2f61a9dde964d287d
do these tests!
quite fun!
image-heavy!
12:47 pm
internet connection sucked yesterday, preventing me from posting the breaking news! :}
MCFLY MANIA IS BACK!??!?!?!!!!!
THIS IS THEIR NEW MUSIC VIDEO FOR THEIR 2ND SINGLE
"LIES"
I KNOW IT IS A LITTLE WEIRD (THE VIDEO) BUT IF YOU WATCH IT A FEW
MORE TIMES, YOU'LL GET THE GIST OF IT!
AND OHMYGODDDDDD, THEY ARE EFFIN' FIT.
CHECK OUT THEIR HAIRRRRR MANXZXZ.
so hot!
i can't believe i'm saying this but DOUGIE looks sooooo good in the video!
and the song is awesome, DUH!!!!!!!!!
one of their best i reckon!
:}
okay, am going to get over this spazz....
but then again, I DON'T WANT TO!!!!!!!!
xoxo
Thursday, August 21, 2008 6:27 pm
i rarely fall ill.
but when i do, every stupid illness seems to all come and have a freaking party in my body.
so much so that i feel like hell.
hate it.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 11:21 pm
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 10:39 pm
THINGS TO DO BEFORE BREAK ENDSfinish Breaking Dawn and blog about it
meet up with justine.
meet up with dawn canida and gang.
meet up with kar yan to do whatever she has planned (oh no.)
watch all the shows/movies i've been planning on watching
make many many batches of icons using photoshop.
play badminton with EVERYONE!
get my long overdue pay cheque.
buy a god damn cd already.
redo my room.
get a new haircut
.
.
.
more soon?
xoxo
9:26 pm
as promised, here i am with an update. ;}
firstly, let me say that semester break is here!
yes, after months of slogging my guts out, i'm FINALLY able to rest well.
for the first time in what feels like... years really.
well, it felt like eons way back when i was rushing projects and shizz.
but now that break is here, i'm kind of at a loss for what to do.
i mean, WHERE THE HECK IS MY SOCIAL LIFE?!
like i have one in the first place, but still.
i guess i could find a job to do, BUT (see there are always a but) i am... lazy.
sort of, i would love to work, but FINDING a job just puts me off. :{
so enough about that.
filming's done and edited.
i've had MUCH MUCH MUCH fun, thanks to everyone who pitched in!
i know i may have, or rather HAVE been a bitch for a couple of days, but i know you all still love me!
because i'm lovable! (sadly, i think i may be becoming somewhat thick skinned like KARYAN :} )
oh the shame.
i'm morphing into a monster! :(
(haha)
but filming was exhausting, definitely.
it's hard working in a group, when you have to compromise with EVERYTHING and EVERYONE.
not that i am COMPLAINING, but...
you know how it can get with members as temperamental as me.
:'(
they say i pms-ing, when i was not!
just having one of those... DAYS.
and i missed out on all the best parts (the last day of filming, the editing mania last saturday)
go to kaya-yaya.blogspot.com to find out more about the EDITING mania!
the pictures should give it away. :}
now that semester is over, i have time to reflect back on the memories.
i remember being absolutely frightened because i was still shy and quiet little secondary school me during the first few days.
then i joined netball for sports & wellness, lucky have ky, or else confirm outcasted.
and i met my class during tutorials.
the first few days were like HELL, because i had no idea who to sit next to, how to converse with ANYONE.
i kept to myself mostly, cos' that was what i did best.
it was difficult to make friends, because that's HOW I AM.
i found projects difficult to handle, everything was all so raw and new and strange to me.
i was terrified that people wouldn't like me.
i cried the first few days when i came back from school.
but NOW, after god-knows-how-many-projects, and 5 months later,
i'm a more confident, stronger person.
albeit still a little shy at first. :}
but i bet everyone is, it's just whether they choose to show it or not.
i am now proud to say that i can somehow or other take things in my stride.
i'm able to control my emotions a little better, but it's still difficult.
i can't see the future right now, but hopefully it'll become brighter the nearer i am to it.
till then, i'll be content with all my lovely friends i have made and finish the next semester.
so after that it'll be HELL once more.
separation was never sweet babe.
so don't cry, lift your head high.
it's no use to show your sorrow.
they will only laugh at your weakness.
separation was never sweet babe.
but be happy that the memories live.
forever in our souls, minds and hearts.
dark knight pictures. :}
i look horrible.
but then i always seem to be in pictures.
sad.
oh, it's kind of small.
whatever.
i'm reading BREAKING DAWN right now. ;}
can't wait to find out what happens in the end.
so far it's quite good, but very... commercial.
as in...i don't know how to describe it.
oh yes, and i coughed up blood the day we had macdonald's.
(hillary, my sis and yingying)
sunday as i recall.
and it happened again today.
don't want to sound so pathetic, but i think it's a sore throat or a lump in the back of my mouth or something.
water will cure it.
don't like doctors, at least not yet.
if this continues, i'll really have to go. :(
next to come: things-to-do-before-break-ends list. ;}
love you all. ;}
xoxo
11:17 am
holidays are here!
i know i should be blogging, like for EVERYTHING that has happened. :}
soon soon!
maybe tonight? ;}
xo
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 8:20 pm
today's restaurant scene started off with a bump.
but we managed to complete it successfully.
the tiramisu at the italian eatery was like HEAVEN-sent.
it tasted effin' good!
i walked home in the drizzle from the restaurant.
took me half an hour from robertson quay.
shows how unfit i am.
:/
but then again, i was lugging my bag and a BIG bag full of clothes and shizz.
medsoc tomorrow and i have to study or i'm going to fail.
i could never bullshit my way through anything.
(im sorry these posts are so short)
xx
Monday, August 11, 2008 10:22 pm
am wanting to watch heroes season 2 like, BAD!
but i'm recording it, since i have been coming home super late these days due to filming and other commitments.
after medsoc and locvid is over, i will be sooooooooo catching up on icons and movies and tv shows manxz.
and and, all my group members are ganging up on me! :(
today we were at west coast filming the sunset, and after at macs,
they were taking photos, and i refused to be in them, so i had to dodge every attempt of their flashes.
unfortunately, they managed to take MANY unglam shots of me. *sighs*
i hate it when people do that.
and i can't get angry or they'll say i'm such a wet blanket or just unreasonable.
grrr.
and our sound for the final project is DAMN SCREWED. HOW?!
tomorrow's restaurant scene = italian meal! wooooo!
hopefully. :/
Sunday, August 10, 2008 11:44 pm
having sleepless nightsall these stupid fights
there's a reason why we can't connect
is it cos of you
is it cos of me
or are the both of us not trying hard enough?
yeah yeah
how am i supposed to say
i don't want you here
is there a way to indicate
this is where we stop the game
how am i supposed to say
i don't need you babe
it's hard but necessary boy
what i got to say
no winners, all losers
in a maze of love and honor
you were a nightmare in shining armor
------------------------------------
they tried to compare us
to all the other people
but it's not possible
cos'
we're more than that
so don't let it come
between us
cos that is what they wanna see
and i'm not gonna let it be
we're more than that
baby please believe
in us
for what can have and be
cos' we're more than that you see.
wooop, a couple of new... lyrics/songs? :}
comments are greatly appreciated! :)
10:15 pm
have been really busy with filming for final project.
am about to collapse soon!
i just want to get this over, and medsoc done with.
so that i can enjoy my holidays! :'(
is that too much to ask?!
have been filming for 3 days straight.
am hardly done.
i think i am lousy with the camera. :(
WHY SO SLOW XH?!
my members should SCOLD the shit out of me already. ;s
but then they think i am pms-ing. :/
i shall be nice because i am!
shush you others who think otherwise...
okay, until next monday, adios! ;}
xh
10:06 pm
Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are
so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you
will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.oh really? straightforward i agree with... but only when i'm so-called 'PMS-ing'. but then do i ACTUALLY listen to both sides of the argument? like, uh...
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
lmao, for real? it's totally my style! why do you think i chose orlando bloom over johnny depp, huh!?
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
having not been in a relationship, i have no comment for this.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
HA! then how come i don't seem to have an active social life? :}
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
yes, i guess this is true, in some sense.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
this is amazingly accurate. i have soooooo much i want out of this life, and i doubt i can actually decide on one particular job i'd see myself in right now.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
yesyesyes, am afraid so am scared to try. :( confidence xh, confidence!
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
things i can't control like death, so i cry or just get moody. :{
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long
i think some people will agree with this, they call it 'PMS-ing' 8-)
i think i have moodswings sometimes.
i can't help it!
it's ME! :D
Thursday, August 07, 2008 10:25 pm
i feel exhausted.
just a day out got me into the mess that i am now.
shitzo; this means i am getting out of shape.
i HAVE TO EXERCISE BUT I AIN'T GOT THE WILLPOWER DAMN ITXZ.
and i'm going to grow fat at this rate.
the stories i hear from poly people about how you will grow fat in poly because you don't have PE and all they do is study study study ohmygodnoplease!
putting that aside, watched The Dark Knight, like, FINALLY?!
angella, liyana, melissa, karyan, yingying and i!
woots!
it was...AWESOME! :}
i can't imagine anyone surpassing the legend that's Heath Ledger in acting the Joker.
he was on the brink of pure insanity i tell you.
my perceived value of the movie was too high, that's why i got a little disappointed about the whole movie. :(
but shiok man, shiok all the same.
k, i think i better head to bed, or i might collapse during filming tomorrow night.
shit:(
x
Wednesday, August 06, 2008 9:13 pm
been so busy lately that i hardly had the time to post.
even right now, at 913 PM, i feel sleepy already.
:(
why is it that all i ever seem to do is go to school, eat, shower, sleep.
my life is sad;
but there's a redeeming factor!
am going to watch dark knight with my friends tomorrow after medsoc!
pray there be seats and no noise to interrupt my form of escape.
it's fun, watching movies.
in a dark theatre when all you can see is this huge screen in front of you,
and the tall dark handsome hunky man flesh seems to be staring back at you
and you swoooooooooooon like crazy and you think your head might explode from the happiness
that has accumulated inside you.
then the lights come on and the credits start to roll....
reality rushes back to your brain in torrents.
woah, where have you been?!
:}
okay short rant there but anyway, i think i might go work on photoshop now!
am loving every minute of it, but i think i'm getting addicted. :(
xxx
Sunday, August 03, 2008 10:57 pm
Friday, August 01, 2008 9:39 pm
I AM FREEEEE!!!!!Free from the clutches of marcomgracomwebgra!!!!!
presentation is over!
3 months of shitty stuff is overrrrr!
okay, i guess it is a relief that we got things done smoothly.
the presentation wasn't our best, but i have to say that the judges/lecturers were pretty lenient with us.
i was already prepared to cry, but luckily, they were quite nice!
i mean, who would have known!
typical, it's always after the end of something that you look back and think,
hey, it's not so bad after all, why were we even so freaked out before?!
ha, but at least it is over!!!!
you cannot imagine the way i feel right now.
my heart is bursting for joy, out of my ribcage!
okay, exaggerated, but yeah.
at first when the presentation was over, i guess i didn't know how i actually felt,
so i was kind of out of sorts?
i think the fact that this huggggggggggggeeeeeeee part of my life for 3 months is actually completed, has stunned me.
i actually felt angry after the presentation.
and don't ask me why.
i think i am so weird.
the others were like " wahooo!!!!! yay!!!!! ohmygod it's OVER!!!!!!! "
and i was at a corner watching them screaming.
to my members:
i'm sorry i've been a bitch today.
i blame it on the stress.
i promise to be nicer from now on!
*but no guarantees, haha.
you know it literally feels like something heavy just came off your shoulders.
now i can focus on more important things like marketing test next week and media in society (which i am starting to like, like, NOW!?)
and also filming.
shitxzo.
<3
xh
The conversation's getting stale
If you won't point it out, then I will
oh, it's kind of small.