Sunday, February 28, 2010 9:05 pm
I really feel that after watching this video, I actually understand what he's going through, in a way? As in Jerry said that he felt inferior at times, and for a big star like him to admit that, it really takes a lot of courage. I mean, how can your heart not go out to him after this? It's like, I never really took time to know how he is as a person? But after watching a couple of videos like this, I feel that the entertainment industry is a really cruel place to be in, and for someone like him with that kind of vulnerable personality to stick it out for so long... kudos to him for that.
<3
4:28 pm
End of February post!
I can't decide on a new blogskin, so I'm probably gonna stick with this for awhile, even though I'm a little sick of it.
& holler because I'm one week away from the Paramore concert!
eep! I don't know if I should be feeling excited over this because it's going to be at the standing pen & I've never been in a standing pen before and because I'm such a small little thing I'm scared of being trampled under hundreds of screaming teenagers younger than I am. Oh my goodness, what if I get pushed into a mosh pit, that'd be awfully scary. I can say goodbye to my Taiwan trip if i break a bone or leg or something!
Speaking of which, Taiwan in a week and a day! OHAYYYYYYY!! I think my excitement over that has overshadowed the Paramore concert oops! Haha, & I hate the neighbours upstairs/downstairs. The drums they play are so f-cking loud and I hate them for it. Don't they know about STUDIOS? Shit, you are disturbing the peace of my lovely neighbourhood. I would really love to go banging on their door and chopping their hands off so they cannot play anymore drums. ARGH!
Taiwan, so many things I wanna do whilst I'm there. Don't know if I will have the time. I feel so unprepared for the trip oh no!!!
Must go shopping for some necessities as well duh! Okay, I'm going to stop here & enjoy my holiday!!! :)
Sunday, February 21, 2010 2:42 pm
Saturday, February 20, 2010 3:23 pm
Thursday, February 18, 2010 3:47 pm
Wednesday, February 17, 2010 12:57 am
10 more posts to the 1000th! :)
Anyway, I just decided to do my electives ranking. I have been teetering for quite a while now... I'm really at a loss of what to do with my life. I mean, it's a big decision and all, I've talked about it with my parents, but... it's ultimately going to fall on me to make the choices. Afterall, it's my life I'm leading. Thing is, I don't feel... secure. I feel like I'm free-falling into something that may break me.
See, I've got to rank 4 electives out of the 17 I get to choose from. I've already sort of sealed my fate with the first choice. Print Journ ftw! Yep, I guess I've really pretty much decided that would be my first choice, right up till I die. Haha.
But yeah, I'm going somewhere with this shit 18 years I've lived. Oh god, this makes me feel sad. :( I'm growing old.
You know I always dreamed when I was younger... I always dreamed that when I grow up, I'll be out in the world... not necessarily a reporter, but rather, in the sea of people along Raffles Place, and then walking down the streets and being all cool and businesslike... Then it switches forward when I grow really old and I'm all wrinkly... I'm scared of how time will pass and everything I ever envisioned myself to be will play out for real. In the dreams -should i even call them dreams? - my life would be pretty flawless.
But dreams are... dreams. I wake up from them feeling scared, lonely and empty inside. Like all the happiness has been sucked out of you. It's like you can feel the Dementors are around you, and in a way, they do exist... invisible or not, they feed off your miseries and woes. I'm scared that what I dream about will not match with what I will become. I'm scared of the disparity between dream and reality basically.
I'm terrified of reality. Awfully terrified, petrifically terrified.
I should stop scaring myself.
EXPECTO PATRONUM!!!!!!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 4:41 pm
Saturday, February 13, 2010 4:01 pm
Well, I've been heading out these couple of days with my mom, once to Somerset & a bit of Orchard Road... and Vivocity today! Bought a couple of t-shirts & a pair of shoes.
I really would like a couple more things, but I'm scared to ask for too much.
I don't want to seem... greedy.
So I guess I shall go get it on my own...
which probably means not getting it at all.
We'll see...
do I have enough money?
Okay, gotta get ready. Reunion dinner in 2 hours at home! Steamboat style.
x
Thursday, February 11, 2010 6:42 pm
a personalised touch, by the jazz maestro himself.
http://valentines.jamiecullum.com/valentinesmessage.php?id=c0c82074d14d4feed4937947b4328712
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 11:36 pm
I'm finally free from the clutches of the MCMonster, at least for a couple of days! I can finally deeply breathe in the smell of freedom and lap up the taste of victory! I have endured yet another semester!!!!!
I mean, there are still the exams that are about 2 weeks away, but I am already in the holiday mood! Definitely not a good way to start things, but... nevertheless, I'm ready to partehhhhhhhh!!!
Okay, I shall go sleep and sleep and sleep and wake up when I feel like it, ahahaha! ;D
Sunday, February 07, 2010 7:27 pm
Shit, one whole week without an update, I'm so sorry! :o
Latest things you should know...
I finally finished the magazine project that took up nearly 3 months of my life! :D Really felt quite accomplished that we started out with nothing and ended up with a 20 page full-colour magazine! :) The ups and downs and whatnot have really affected me in many ways. Not all of them for the best though, so I'm trying to tone down the bad, play up the good yes? Okay, if you don't get what I'm trying to say, I guess it's not really all that important haha.
Also gave me a boost in confidence, this project has. Oh, and reaffirms my interest in journalism... by that very little bit hahaha. It's tough, but what else can I do with my life?
Oh, and tomorrow's the presentation for my web project. OMG AM IN NERVOUS SPASMS RIGHT NOW, but whatever. I think we'll do alright. Once that is over, I think I will have quite a bit lifted off my shoulder...
Wednesday's my radio talkshow!!! The same day Kris Allen will be on the same small island with me! OHNO, I wish I could've bought the tix to go watch him sing, but it's in a club, and I'm not too hot about clubs, sorry. ZZZZ.
Once Wednesday is over though, I think I'll be very much in the holiday mood for CNY, which I'll be spending in Singapore... tsk. I might also get to finally do some DIY! XD
&&& COME MARCH, I'LL BE GOING TO TAIWAN FOR 2 FRIGGIN' WEEKS! OH YEAH YOU KNOW YOU'RE JEALOUS! I'm beside myself right now!!!! YES YES YES! Already thinking of doing so many things, but it's a study trip and won't be all about fun fun fun la! HAHAHA. :) I've never been so excited about going overseas before... haha, must have been deprived for a long long time eh!
Okay, I shall go get some work done! :) KEEP THE POSITIVITY UP AND IT'LL BE OKAY!!! :D
xx
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