Saturday, January 31, 2009 10:33 pm
David Cook; Lie.
You whispered that you were getting tired,
Got a look in your eye,
Looks a lot like goodbye.
Hold on to your secrets tonight.
Don't want to know, I'm ok with this silence
It's truth that I don't want to hear
You're hiding regret in your smile
There's a storm in your eyes,
I seen coming for awhile
Hold on to the past tense tonight
Don't say a word,
I'm ok with the quiet.
The truth is gonna change everything
So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye,
Lie, lie, lie.
Lie, lie, lie.
I know that there's no turning back.
If we put too much light on this we'll see through all the cracks.
Let's stay in the dark one more night.
Don't want to know I'm ok with the silence.
It's truth that I don't want to hear.
So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
So look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie.
Don't want to believe in this ending
Let the cameras roll on,
Keep pretending
Tomorrow's all wrong if you walk away
Just stay
So lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie.
So lie to me and tell me that we're gonna be ok
So lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the day
I don't mind if you wait before you tear me apart
Look me in the eye,
And lie, lie, lie.
This song has so many awesome one-liners that strike the heart.
I wish I could write like this.
Friday, January 30, 2009 2:58 pm
waiting, outside, the world does not move
glancing,
at a phone that does not ring
looking,
around for a familiar face.
there!
that smile, those eyes...
i'm falling...
so fast, so deep
i want out but am sucked in
but wait,
something's not.... right
he isn't,
what a big mistake i've made.
what now,
i've woken up from slumber
waiting,
for someone i don't know.
Thursday, January 29, 2009 11:04 pm
well, i went to school today to discuss socpsych with liyana & alan.
then kaya came and we went for lunch...
then we discussed issues interview survey questions.
and then we debated on whether we should go to a maid agency.
which we did, at bukit timah shopping centre.
ky had kobayashi for courage...
then we went around asking...
but after a few rejections....
VOILA!!!
we finally found a nice lady who answered most of our questions! :}
so we kind of have our interview down pat.
which is bloody good because we are timid people and my heart was hammering against my ribcage when i went into those agencies.
it was kind of scary and foreign to me okay....
so yeah.
I DO HAVE A LIFE IF YOU NOTICED!
okay i am sick of writcomm, i shall go watch american idol.
bye.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 5:01 pm
don't you bloody tell me what i should do when you don't know shit about me. fuckkkkkkkk you.
less than all you need.
4:55 pm
sobs.
i think my speech is going to bring my grade down...
and down and down and down.
i'm in a "down" phase.
this is shit.
and there's FRENCH later.
psh.
shitsticks.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 11:20 pm
i just saw the hugest cockroach, just about 30 cm away from my feet.
the yelp that came out of my mouth sounded like a man's.
and it ran away before i could find something to hit it with.
shitsticks.
5:02 pm
new year was quite good!
didn't get many red packets because of last year's passing of my grandma,
but still, t'was nice to see family and be around family...
sort of.
the weather was really hot though.
and i am glad to say i didn't eat as much new year goodies or drink much soft drinks!
it wasn't that difficult to resist.
i wasn't seating near the goodies, and i was also doing my homework. :}
anyway, some pictures! :}
honestly there are more but i am an ass and don't want to post more.
FOOD PICTURES SOON. :/
k!
Monday, January 26, 2009 10:57 pm
oh how i wish i could read your mind
see your thoughts when i look into your eyes
baby this ain't a game i wanna play
so don't you take this so lightly.
is it wrong to like you? :( 10:15 pm
all i can think about is homework.
what's not done, what should be done...
it's almost driving me up the wall here.
honestly, what of
speech comm ?i do not like this very much, don't like it very much indeed.
Saturday, January 24, 2009 11:59 pm
today was pretty cool.
i managed to finish my socpsych journal 2, albeit in a very i-am-not-satisfied-because-the-quality-is-shit way.
but nonetheless, we had dinner at jalan 222, ah hwa restaurant (not really a restaurant). the place was really hot and because it just rained it was even stickier and hotter.
BLACK NOODLES & another type of noodles that was amazingly quite delicious.
but the exciting part's not until we finished and split up into 2 groups (2 cars)
all the women in one, and the guys (including zhanliiiii) in another.
Women being Hillary, her mom, YingYing, my sis, mom and I.
Guys being my dad, hillary's dad, and zhanzhan.
Anyway, our car was parked in the back alley, and it was narrow.
The car is a 4wheeljeep-ish vehicle... so we were unable to get out because another car was blocking the way.
So...
we decided to GOSTAN BALIK, or reverse out of the alleyway.
IT WAS JUST TORTUROUS.
it being DARK, WET, NARROW, and a HUGE car just made up all the worst conditions possible to reverse.
after much brakes and filthy gestures (kind of...) at the other car owner (who eventually came back to go off after we were halfway out of the alleyway), we got out!
Thanks to the great driving skills of Hillary's mom.
And my mom for giving instructions all the way with her head stuck out in the rain to prevent us from dropping into the "longkang".
but anyway, after that we needed retail therapy and went to SUBANG PARADE!
that's kind of near the hospital my grandma went to before she passed.
but anyway, there was a sale at this one store, and i wanted to find this pair of shorts which i thought wasn't my size.
There were so many piles I looked and looked but couldn't find the right pair and size.
AND the only pair that wasn't in my size was missing too.
but then after i was about to give up, the pair that i thought wasn't my size appeared again.
-_-|||
and i ended up buying it.
with a shirt! :o
and then we headed over to lingerieeeeeeeeeeeeee.
and no i didn't buy anything there k.
but i saw more shorts!
which i kind of tried and bought one more!
:D:D:D:D:D
and it's in the material i like!
i just thought it was a little.. SHORT.
i'll get used to it... 8-)
so there.
we ended up spending quite a bit.
240 RM. (well, all the women.)
yup.
then we ended with mcDs.
AND NEXT TO THE MC.D was ROTIBOY.
ohmygoddddddd, my longlost rotiboyyyyyy!!!!
but it was about to close, so no more rotiboy.
QUOTING FROM KY, she will do this:
T.T
T.T
T.T
sobs.
i guess i'll have to wait some more to taste that ROTIBOY I LOVED.
okay, am kind of sad i didn't start on writcomm.
but i'll see if i can squeeze time in tomorrow.
geezzzzzz, lots of things to do tomorrow.
okay.
BYE!
Thursday, January 22, 2009 10:16 pm
i ain't feeling finecan't fall asleep tonight
cos my heart is racing
and my head is spinning
how do you do this to me
i'm falling deeper baby
into the unknown now
oh right here and right now
i wish i knew
i wish i knew
i wish i knew
you
the night is bright
a shooting star's in sight
i close my eyes and pray
for something i won't say
but
i wish i knew
i wish i knew
i wish i knew
you
9:56 pm
this has got to be one of my brainless days.
literally.
when i can't use my brain because it is for some unfathomable reason NOT IN MY HEAD.
why can't i just UNDERSTAND the questions and DO the shit homework already?!
yes, i am pms-ing and i can go cry now.
BYE.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 10:26 pm
i guess i had a few bumps to dent my day.
sigh.
well, written comm was not too bad.
then was lunch... i ate japanese.
will never do so again.
then well, the iac interview went okay.
during speech comm...
i said pilates wrongly, having REPEATEDLY said the word before tutorial...
the Q&A session was shit.
i totally lost my cool.
which i probably did not have in the first place.
i am so not a person who can think on the spot.
and just hearing the monstrosities that happen during the final speech...
all i can say is
BYE BYE.
i'm THAT screwed.
and i think that miss d feels my last speech was more informative than persuasive.
i am scared i'll do badly.
i don't want to screw up.
argh, the thought... :(
but during the french talk, it was ultimate boring.
sorry KY for dragging you into it.
and when i was on the lift home...
THE FRIGGIN LIFT SUDDENLY STOPPED.
like for one split second, and it was so scary because it dropped a few inches.
luckily the power came back and i quickly got out on the 4th floor.
yup, so an ultimately emotional day.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 10:18 pm
well, i guess the last hours of the last lecture Tuesday of the semester is slowly trickling away...
it was a most shocking Tuesday of my life i swear.
Radio lecture especially.
at 11-30 in the MORNING okay, half-way through...
Felix got into this "bitch-shouting-weird-fight" with
a student in class...
and so she stormed out of class with the door-slamming-hard technique.
well, we were all confounded by that small incident...
but didn't really think much about it... just thinking that someone had a lousy day or something.
so in the end Felix went out to get her back?
WHICH HE SHOULDN'T HAVE TO BECAUSE HE IS THE LECTURER...
yeah, we didn't find anything queer about that either.
so then near the end of lecture, Nicole came back in... and that's when EVERYTHING started to run amok.
or rather.... 6 bare-chested guys from (gym?) just strolled into class.
even worse was that they had R-E-N-U-!-! painted on their chests.
like.... i would NOT want to be her please and thank you.
that was majorly embarrassing.
but i guess it's the thought that counts. :/
so in the end we found out the "bitch-fight" was like... fake.
-_-||
just thinking about it... are 18th birthdays THAT crazy and demented?
but then again, if it was McFly.... *dreamy sigh*
ahahaha.
but overall it was a good day with great laughs and... not so great stuff that kind of dampened my mood.
but i don't know...
it's not even about something HUGE.
such petty stuff shouldn't be a problem in the first place.
crap.
xx
(I SO DO NOT PUT KTHANKSBYE AT EVERY POST)
Monday, January 19, 2009 10:34 pm
i am feeling FREE.
like with nothing to do.
and that makes me terribly uneasy!!!!
gah.
i am paranoid.
i should be happy that i have free time, but no!
i am feeling uneasy, like there's something to be done and i'm not doing it!
why have i become like this?!
10:27 pm
i'm on the edge,
waiting to fall into the unknown.
don't waste your time,
i'll be falling, falling here.
i'll close my eyes,
before taking a deep breath.
you won't be in time,
so let me fall, don't catch me.
Sunday, January 18, 2009 10:13 pm
well, this week flew by, and was totally a waste. :(
i don't think i did anything productive.
except to finish Brisingr.
more on THAT later.
but firstly my mom and i went with her sister and her family to dinner!
at anchorpoint.
we were supposed to eat at one-north's HARRY's bar.
but it was closed.
so they went to alexandra village to eat chili crab...
but then changed their mind and went to anchorpoint's Jack's place.
damnnnn, i ate oily stuff.
which i didn't finish because it didn't really taste so good.
but there was so much food.
gahhhh.
i'm thinking of making a zipperrrr thingy (KY!!! :) )
but then, my mom says the button thing (the holey thing) cannot be done without a machine of some sort.
so i either have to go to a tailor's or... something.
sigh.
maybe that's why it cost 60 US Benjamins.
----
Brisingr.
i was sooooooo enraptured by the last few bits.
AND THEN!!!!
it had to end.
I THOUGHT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A FREAKING TRILOGY!
why did a BOOK FOUR POP OUT OF NOWHERE?!
cheat my feelings!
i thought the ending was near and that shitty-old-beard-man GALBATORIX would die!
or live..
but i don't know.
BECAUSE THERE IS A FOURTH BOOK!
blast it.
grrrrrr.
but it was nonetheless a great book.
now.
off to do something else.
x
Saturday, January 17, 2009 2:23 pm
i will require 3000 singapore dollars if i want to ever get THIS.
10:51 am
in need of inspiration.
bye.
Friday, January 16, 2009 8:17 pm
is it wrong to say that i'm actually interested in watching this movie?
gahhhhh..
i was so tired today when i woke up alone at home.
haha, KY & I decided to wear FBT to school today!
i was THAT tired and LAZYYYYYY.
sigh.
but yeah, socpsych was interesting.
we learnt about aggression and assertiveness.
i am SO NOT able to fight with KY.
no mood and i'm not really the fighting kind... i think?
well, i fight with my sis, and my mom...
oh well.
i seriously just blanked out.
damn it i suck.
but later we went to borders!
and then we went to eat at far east plaza.
saw jill, zac and gab while on the way.
SURPRISING.
but yeah, i think i had a fly in my bowl of noodles. :(
sad.
and KY's Chippy Fish & Chips made her sick.
i saw so many nice printed tees in FEP! :(
hm, CNY CNY!
yeah, and then i bought dinner back.
sigh.
on the bus, i looked out the window and into a passing car.
the driver was touching, or rather squeezing his you-know-what.
like so gross.
oh and i saw a rat on the road which had its intestines all like... SPILLING OUT.
ew.
it was so damn gross.
arrgh.
but KY is even worse than me.
i sympathise.
yup, and that was my day.
i'm bloody tired and feel like sleeping.
gahhhhh.
k byebye.
Thursday, January 15, 2009 10:44 pm
oh my goodness.
today is definitely not my day.
these are the reasons why:
- i couldn't really wake up this morning.
- i could not for the life remember what i ate for breakfast for a few minutes. (i had a curry puff)
- radio was god damn stressful in the last hour of the deadline.
- i do not think i would have survived today without sanity.
- i think i may have a cold.
- i think i may have gotten gastric... it hurts so bad, even after eating...
- my eye had specks of sand in them TWICE.
- we didn't go for dinner as planned.
-jason mraz tickets sold out.
- i forgot one point i wanted to put in.
- i still can't remember it.
-oh fuck it.
i'm so tired from radio i think i might just fall asleep and not wake up tomorrow in time for socpsych.
great...
5:00 pm
MY HANDS ARE FREE OF RADIO! OHMYGOODNESSME!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU LORD!
*collapses in heap of relief*
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 9:38 am
You Are "delete"
|
Some people might try to say you're standoffish and aloof.
You prefer to think of yourself as a person of few words.
You like to live simply, speak simply, and act simply. It's all about editing.
No wonder you're the first person your friends call when they need a mess cleaned up!
|
This is funny.
DELETE!
call me that.
not.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 3:46 pm
SHITSTICKS;
isn't that a nice word? :}
ahaha.
say it like real fast five times.
ahahah.
anyway, another random verse.
you approach life cautiously
the wind caressing your cheek gingerly
like you would a new born baby
free fallin' down the highway
isn't that john mayer out there?
the legend with the guitar
sarcastic bantering to and fro.
where the green lies on the head
with the droplets of brown cascading down
in the name of an angella...
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
what life.
Sunday, January 11, 2009 11:22 pm
so once you down that glasswill all sense of coherence
be erased?
some say truths are lies
while others, lie's the truth.
in the placement of an apostrophe.
funny how you speak that way
and i laugh not understanding
appropriate yet subdued.
where will you go from here
music ups that down you feel
ah, how apt.
9:40 pm
Elena, i think you might just curse the people who did this. :}
The 19-year-old “Love Story” singer revealed to CMT, “The video was directed by Trey Fanjoy. She’s done all my videos, and it’s been really fun working with her. This video’s a lot different than the other videos we’ve made because usually we’ve gone for bright colors and me looking straight into the camera and singing. But this one, it’s a little more introspective. There’s a pretty emotional scene in there where I had to cry for like three hours, like bawl my eyes out for three hours. It was really interesting and sort of a new thing for me. [Former Laguna Beach star] Stephen Colletti’s in it, so I’m really excited about that. I saw him on One Tree Hill and thought he was really awesome on that. I thought he had the look we were going for, for the video guy. This guy in the video is supposed to look really sweet, and someone who looks like he’d never lie to you — but then he does. So I thought he’d be perfect for it and he actually does an amazing job.”
For those who don't know, my cousin ELENA kinda liked Stephen Colletti in OTH, but hates Taylor Swift.
And they are now working together on her music video!
EPIC!!!!!
sorry babe, that's just the way the cookie crumbles. :}
xxxEDIT:
Fergie and Transformers hunk
Josh Duhamel were
married Saturday at the Church Estates Vineyards in Malibu, Calif.
when bad news comes, it comes in droves love. ;}
x
11:39 am
i forgot to mention that i got a haircut yesterday!
not much difference in my opinion but... wooo!
my head feels lighter!
*NOT BECAUSE OF A SMALLER BRAIN SIZE K!*
Saturday, January 10, 2009 8:23 pm
okay, i wrote my resolutions post, but i deleted everything.
just too... troublesome right now.
i'll write it somewhere else.
(short posts are my forte these days)
xo
Friday, January 09, 2009 10:23 pm
could be from downstairs.
TOSSERS!
does sound travel upward?
10:06 pm
BLOODY SODDING ASSHOLES from somewhere upstairs keeps DRILLING at NIGHT, after fucking 10pm.
wanted to find those shitty people and tell them off but it wasn't from DIRECTLY up...
so we don't know.
SO FREAKING INCONSIDERATE!
i hate neighbours like those.
Thursday, January 08, 2009 11:49 pm
honestly, why can't i do well in radio?
it's one subject i'm actually interested in, but i end up with the lousiest results.
is it because i'm not working hard enough?
or is this just not my forte?
did i even get onto the right path now?
SODDING SHIT.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009 10:20 pm
people say that my online personality is so much more cheerful than the real me.
i won't deny that.
i just feel more comfortable that way, y'know?
it's that sense of... physical anonymity. (socpsych term!!!)
not really wanting to be a hypocrite, or have people think i am fake or anything though.
it's ALL me.
just that i'm not exactly comfortable in my own skin yet.
not yet.
so be patient!
i'm not sure when, or how, that these two... PERSONALITIES as you call it might MERGE to become one...
it's not even 2 personalities.
it's ALL me.
see? contradicting much?
oh i can't explain it.
just know that if you like talking to the online me, then just keep doing so.
and vice versa.
thank you and bye bye.
5:03 pm
here i am, complaining about my life again.
i never get to do anything extremely crazy.
hm, why?
am i not adventurous enough?
i look at others who are comfortable just acting crazy and fun.
it's like they have a life and i don't.
i'm wasting my youth!!!
:(
oh well. what to do but sit here and wallow in self-pity.
when i should ACT on it...
but i can't.
because it'll be not normal, and it'll get awkward.
'
eh?
12:28 pm
they had to make me do this...
i hate tagging people sometimes cos' they tag me back.
ANGELLA.
1. She is easily annoyed, especially when you keep calling her by "AN-JELLA", (like nigella lawson).
2. She is uber timid, so you should be able to scare her easily! (I'm going to try it today!)
3. She loves online shopping, and is rich. Damn it.
4. She has brown hair, though i think it's red or maybe blonde... :/
5. She likes Reese Peanut Butter Cup so i bought two for her Christmas gift.
6. She has caps that are super nice.
7. Angella is not an angel, don't let her name deceive you k.
8. She can be a nice friend, sometimes....
9. She will probably kill me for saying bad things about her.
10. She types "stuff" as "stuffs". :}
KAR YAN.
1. She likes her name spelt with a space in between Kar and Yan. Why?!
2. She has an extensive music collection, which includes those which i have not heard of, and she probably hasn't heard of either.
3. She has DSLRs, in plural form. (or rather, her dad owns them...)
4. Always does well for studies, which makes me, her FRIEND, rather insecure because i am COMPETITIVE!!!! :(
5. She goes for facials, like once every 2-3 months.
6. She likes being EMO!
7. She always has a hard time finding shoes that fit, and that should not be the case! MAKE LARGER SHOES CORPORATIONS!!!!
8. I will not be so bad to mention that she has an ardent suitor.
9. She is not as bad as Angella! So much better as a friend! (So friend her, don't friend Angella!)
10. She made me late for WRITCOMM class today!
12:25 pm
CUTENESS OVERLOAD!
*hearts*
Tuesday, January 06, 2009 6:33 pm
eep! 700th post! :}
calls for a celebration!
anyway, i feel so liberated after the social psychology test.
like the weight of the earth has been lifted off my shoulders! :}
wooooo.
nothing is impossible now!
lolxz.
anyway, i promised i'd do this for "my lovely cousin"...
and also because she tagged me...
Whoever who gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her:
Elena Kon.
1. She hates Taylor Swift, but got me a Taylor Swift CD, and tagged me as the TAYLOR SWIFT CD RECEIVER. :}
2. She is currently residing in Mooresville, North Carolina, USA.
3. She is, not very bright I have to say. At least, not when she's standing next to me.
4. She has a brill name, and I'm still waiting for her to gift me with a name.
5. Elle a toujours les types de phrases en français que je ne comprends pas.
6. She hates math, but I can't understand why. Math is quite fun sometimes.
7. She likes the number 7.
8. She is coming back to Singapore/Malaysia in June/July! ;}
9. She will never be able to steal Jesse McCartney from me because the FUTURE is set.
10. She has a thing for David Beckham... you know the footballer with the Mickey voice?
The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself
1. I currently love dragons, especially the dragons in the Eragon book series.
2. I absolutely am and always will be in love with McFly.
3. I think the next concert I'd want to go to will be Jason Mraz. (5th March 09 anyone?)
4. I have yet to cut my hair since a long time ago.
5. I LOVE PLAYING THE GUITAR, even though i suck at it and it is missing one string.
6. I feel lonely sometimes.
7. I do not see why people like Facebook so much (especially Pet Society). Myspace all the way!
8. I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY! I LOVE MCFLY!!(can you see the extent of my adoration? :D)
9. I think London is amazing, just the name is so... happening.
10. I now know why Elena can't count to 10. (i just saw all the 9s... ;D)
Choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names: ( i dont know if i know 10 people)
1. Elena Kon (Just do the first part ahahahaha.)
2. Kar Yan
3. Angella
4. Dawn?
5. Canida?
6. Siti
7. Kathleen
8. Kristen
9. Alan
10. This just proves that I suck at making friends. Ohmygod.
12:14 am
i think that sometimes people don't really get what you mean.
and you can't be bothered to try explaining it to them because,
they will NEVER get it.
and it'll just be a waste of breath.
i'd rather save it and be a misunderstood kid.
at least i know that i understand myself.
they are the ones who are too screwed up to understand me.
/rant.
honestly, don't even know why i wrote that.
nothing happened.
i was just studying for social psychology.
:/
Monday, January 05, 2009 10:12 am
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| |  | I will marry jesse mccartney. | |
| |   | After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in hong kong in our fabulous Mansion. | |
| |  | We will have 2 kid(s) together. | |
| |   | Our family will zoom around in a dark blue honda. |
| |  | I will spend my days as a Magazine editor, and live happily ever after. | |
| |
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| |
SORRY ELENA!
seems like i got the guy YOU wanted after all! :D
xo
Sunday, January 04, 2009 9:08 pm
i aim to complete my writcomm outline today.
my writer's block is out of the way and i can think proper again!
:} :}
Saturday, January 03, 2009 10:22 pm
did not wear shoes today to captain's ball tournament thingy.
THE RULES SPECIFIED NO FOOTWEAR ALLOWED.
so i obeyed.
and everyone turned up with shoes.
so i had to like, borrow from liyana (thanks!)...
and we were so awesome at the game that we kinda... lost all...
sigh.
but that's okay!
i got something out of it!
I REALISED THAT I AM SERIOUSLY UNFIT.
LIKE DISGUSTINGLY UNFIT.
LIKE ohmygoodlord UNFIT.
sigh.
why oh why.
yes, back to work.
Friday, January 02, 2009 11:57 pm
Forget him. Just forget him. Those words were what she kept repeating to herself as she downed glass after glass of cold beer. It tasted bitter in her mouth. Everything tasted bitter in her mouth these days. Ever since the day he left. His last words to her were those of contempt and hate, and that pure loathing she saw in his eyes... It was agonizing. She loved him. She still did. It was futile though, since it was a one-sided thing, probably right from the very start. He was good at leading her on, keeping her in that perfect fantasy. He was like a drug to her, something she started to crave once she got hooked. Then he had to bring the world crashing down on her, just like that. Sitting on that barstool, she envisioned that unfortunate day, playing it over and over, trying to find out what went wrong. Why did he lash out now? Were they not going on quite well? She was content, he was nonchalant. She had chosen to keep an eye closed... she could not lose him. Since reality had taken hold of her, all she could think of doing was drowning her sorrows. What better way to do so than in lager? Forget him. Just...forget him.
4:18 pm
GUESS WHO HAS THE NEW TAYLOR SWIFT ALBUM?????????????
thanks to & i quote "your lovely cousin".... :}
elena!!!
haha, and the joke is she hates taylor.
awww, yay!!!
what you want for your birthday!!!! :D
hahah...
okay,
back to work.
xoxo
Thursday, January 01, 2009 5:02 pm
The start of 2009 is so unlike those of the years before.
This year is more screwy than ever.
I am hating everything related to schoolwork right now.
The conversation's getting stale
If you won't point it out, then I will
