17 again was wayyyyyyyyyyyyy cool. okay, i correct myself. Zac Efron just made my heart melt. :o I really wanna go into detail about the whole movie, but NOT YET. 

Today was lecture Monday, which was draining. Okay, not THAT much... but just sitting through 6 to 7 hours of lectures can affect one physically & mentally. But anyways, NEWSWRITING was pretty much NEWSWRITING... I really have to get a notebook for that class soon. I should have it at home... then TVPRODUCTION was pretty cool! I mean, yesterday's Star Awards was quite lame, and I know what the lecturer was saying about the inherent mistakes that were made, because I was thinking of TVPROD when I was watching the Star Awards, how the director must be shouting, Ready 1 take 1 & whatever they do. & the mistakes were really really obvious mistakes. At one point during the top 10 males, one of the Hong Kong presenters read out the 2nd name even before Pornsak gave his speech. Luckily the screen was cut to Pornsak but you could still catch the moment that she read out the name haha. Not that I blame her though, it was really last minute rehearsals. :/ Blah. I shall not comment any further. It's pretty fun to spot the mistakes though! :D && we all volunteered for Singapore Idol! :} I don't know what we're gonna do but I hope to gain more experience from it!!!! :} Awesome, I'm being more proactive! 

hello people in virtual land! i've been absent for 2 days! & i have to say week 1 of school is almost coming to an end & week 2 is starting... to be honest, i'm not very happy about it. sure, there's going to be Labour Day so Friday is a holiday, but... it's photography i'm going to be missing. I still have that unnerving sensation about school. I guess I just have to get used to it... a new class, new environment, new faces, new everything... I mean, I've made quite a bit of friends in the past year, which I have to say am very happy about! I hope they're always going to be there for me... and not end up like what happened to my primary school mates, whom I have kind of not spoken to in ages. I think it'll even be awkward... but we got together last year I think. I can't remember. :/ Anyway, I just wanted to say that I ate my favourite CARROT CAKE today! :} & it was crispy & good, just like how it should ALWAYS be, but this is one of the rare times that CARROT CAKE actually tastes so good! The last time I ate mindblasting carrot cake was when my dad came back from the airport/work and he stopped by somewhere (he says maxwell) to buy the awesomest carrot cake. WHITE & CRISPY!!!! & it was at night which made it even more sinful but omggggg.  okay i should stop obsessing. i still have not watched 17 Again. WHY WHY WHY can't i find someone to go with me? sadz. 

I was meaning to talk about my first day back at school as a Year 2, but I kept procrastinating. So anyway, I was extremely nervous, to say the least, but my friends helped to ease the unfamiliar situation we were all in. Met Ky, Mel & Ange at the bus stop before we headed up to the lecture theatre at the convention centre. I like the convention centre lecture theatres, but the only grouch I have is that there is no reception!!! Not that I use my phone a lot... nobody ever calls me. Ok, besides my unpopular self, I got to see the whole batch again at once, it's been 3 months, you can't help feeling a little curious what everyone has been up to you know? Yeah, but we sized up the lecturers (in a perfectly nice way! all the lecturers are all nice!!! :D) and the subject we're gonna be studying. Like, it's tests assignments presentations whateverrrrrrrzzz all. I exaggerate, but still!!! I'm sad because it looks like we just stepped into hell. It isn't HOT yet, but it's gonna BURN soon enough. :(     

Oh my goodness. I cannot believe I just spent the whole 3 months of my holiday doing practically nothing remotely productive. :( I mean, how did 3 months just fly by like that?! I know right? & it's starting to hit me now, right smack in the face like woah! Nevertheless, I shall look forward to school... even though the word brings bile up my throat. I don't know how Neil Patrick Harris does it, that fake wanting to gag gesture... it's genius! He's a genius! 

Okay, so today I woke up like, too early. At 630 am! But I got up at like 7am... I really couldn't bring myself to get out of bed, and time passed really fast. :o Anyway, if I am unable to wake up early... at this rate what is going to happen when school starts?! 

Yesterday's baking @ Ky's house went okay I guess. I still have like what, 7 muffins left from the 10 i took? Haha, I like baking, but I don't like the eating process, is that weird? Anyway, so I met Ky at Jurong Point to buy some stuff we didn't have for baking, which included milk and bananas... while Angella was having lunch with the 'rents. Obviously, we had to wait for her before we could leave for the house... and Jane arrived at the bus interchange as well! So before the rest of Nautilus Gls came, we kind of had Maggie mee cooked by Angella which tasted soft. I shall not complain because it's Angella and for her to actually get down and cook stuff for us to eat... i think a few pigs flew that day. hahaha. But yeah, Rockbanded a little before it started getting crowded with her cousin and her Gls. :} They are funny people and can play Rockband for like... hours. :o I don't know how they do it. Maybe it's me, and my short attention span.  So Angella & I started baking. Ky got a little upset that she didn't have a part to play in the baking process... but she's the host! Isn't it weird that her friends are out there playing Rockband and she is in here baking with us? I don't know... maybe it wasn't such a good idea to do both things together at the same time. But the muffins seem to turn out fine... Totally looks so much better in the photos because of the flash. Eek. But yeah, I played the drums a couple of times. Love the drums! :D I should start taking drumming lessons soon.. or plan to anyway. Yeah, so watched them play, baked... then went home.

sorry i'm not blogging as much.

i really should start doing something with my life. it seems like everyone around me is having balls of fun and i'm just stagnant. you know, just watching life pass me by. moments that i will never ever get back. wasted. okay, i'm moping... which is pathetic and sad. great. i should just go hit my head against the wall or something... bleed a little, go to hospital... that'd be more fun than staying at home. wow. it's starting to sound like a good idea. okay, bye, gonna go try hit my head now. 

try and watch this in HD!!!! damn good quality, which means you get to see TaySwift up close! :o

i think i wanted to post more videos but I can't remember what those were.
for David Archuleta in SINGAPORE, i think your best choice to watch the videos are at [davidarchuleta.sg]

Your Enneagram Type(s): Type 9

Nines need to avoid conflict and tension. They want to preserve harmony with others (or at least with key others) and to keep peace whatever the cost. They are often suite capable of ignoring anything which might disturb this essential harmony. They also prefer things to remain stable, and they resist change or disruption.
Possible Origins. Nines felt overlooked as children and as a consequence formed the habit of discounting their own essential needs. They describe family situations that range from neglect to being overshadowed by siblings to being ignored or attacked when they stood up for their own ideas. What is common to all of these childhood prototypes is the sense of not being listened to when an opinion was put forward and realizing that showing anger directly did not get their opinion heard.

You can get a full decription of the 'type nine' here.


More enneagram resources.
Type: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
68% 60% 43% 60% 60% 63% 45% 50% 78%
TYPE NINE: THE MEDIATOR

Nines need to avoid conflict and tension. They want to preserve harmony with others (or at least with key others) and to keep peace whatever the cost. They are often suite capable of ignoring anything which might disturb this essential harmony. They also prefer things to remain stable, and they resist change or disruption.
Possible Origins. Nines felt overlooked as children and as a consequence formed the habit of discounting their own essential needs. They describe family situations that range from neglect to being overshadowed by siblings to being ignored or attacked when they stood up for their own ideas. What is common to all of these childhood prototypes is the sense of not being listened to when an opinion was put forward and realizing that showing anger directly did not get their opinion heard.

Flawed Nines. Nines tend to ignore a problem rather than risk disturbing what they perceive as a stable situation. They often do harm to others and to themselves by refusing to deal with problems. They may also be passive, even lazy and overly dependent on external stimuli. Or they may procrastinate or stick to routine so as to avoid conflict and vitality. As managers, they tend to play a custodial or stand-pat role.

Well-Adapted Nines are those who have achieved a strong sense of themselves as individuals. They become masters of their fate and develop an active orientation to life. They remain peaceful individuals but do not turn away from problems. They are the most trusting of all the types and the most trusted. Their love of harmony makes them ideal mediators.

As managers, they are good at preserving what is best about an organization. They are stable individuals who have a calming influence--an asset in times of change and disruption. They are highly interested in putting back together what gets rent asunder in their organization. They restore the equilibrium. In playing this role, they shed their relative passivity and learn to take the initiative and to take stands. They gain confidence in their ability to contribute, but they rarely become arrogant.

Occupations. Nines, because of their excellent mediating skills, make good arbitrators and counselors. In groups they play an important part of harmonizes, bringing peace and calm. As managers, they keep the bureaucracy functioning--jobs that depend on routine, protocol, and recognized procedures. They also are good a playing integrator roles, as between functions or divisions or locations.

Finding Oneself.

Nines probably will agree with most of the following statements:
I often have difficulty in saying "no."
Most things in life aren't worth getting upset about.
I find that I often dip in and out Of conversations, thinking of several things at once.
The most important things to be done are left to the end Of the day.
While there are some differences, I feel most people are pretty much the same.
I hate to waste energy. I look for energy-saving approaches to things.
I become very stubborn when I feel pushed by others.
I can be a dispassionate arbiter because one side is as good as the other.
I'm really sensitive about having my efforts overlooked, criticized, discounted.
I tend to play things down to get other people settled down.


ha.

camp's over! FMS FOC 2009, the PIRATED EDITION has been a blast!!!

my goodness, has it been a long 4 days 3 nights? like, DUH!!!! I had loads of fun, but then again, I think I had some down moments as well. As always camps make me break down like crazy. I slept till 11am today, which means 12 straight hours plus the nap i took yesterday for 2 hours, that makes it 14 hours. :o Yup, I need to regain my energy and shitxz, or I will not be right as rain for school. :( And I'm in the Programme Committee, so think of what those GLs/Exco must be feeling. :o

but seriously, need to thank all of PROGCOMM (EH AH!) for making camp so enjoyable! :} It wouldn't be memorable if not for all of them! & of course, PROGCOMM is well important!!!! sometimes i feel that we have more fun than the GLs and freshies :p So kudos to Isabel, Charissa, Marinne, Justine, Reuben, Lavinna, Serene, Natalie & Ying Hao! :D

here's a rundown of what went on during the 4 days i spent in school:

Sunday
I reached school around 3pm and waited at the bus stop for Marinne, wooo new friend! :p && then we trudged up the torturous hill to FMS with our luggage & all, and got to the Hangar. Seriously, I've been hanging out at level 8 for like what, a semester, and I never knew the Hangar existed. I thought it was a small classroom or something, but it turned out to be what, something HUGE, like a hall. :o It's an examination hall i think. but anyway, we basically had nothing to do because the Gls were learning the mass dance and so we just hung around.

Dinner came and ProgComm went to Macsssssxz. BUT I DID NOT BREAK MY NO-BURGER-IN-2009 rule! :D hahaha, Isabel, Marinne & I shared like, a chicken and pizza bought at Cold Storage. Awesomeszzzzz. I think I shall start skipping out on fries next. :/ Fries ARE WORSE than BURGERS, so I've found out. :/ Eesh, no more fries!!!!! okay, no more MAC fries? ;p But yeah, dinner was enjoyable and then we went to buy some last minute logistics.

headed back for a briefing, and ended up learning the mass dance. i can't dance, period. it was too fast for me and i know now that i will never ever start dancing. omg can die of embarrassment. then it was just a briefing and it was getting late but nobody was sleeping so time just went by and it was 3 am before I even went to sleep. :o We played Indian Poker, which was new to me, and really quite fun! :o Hahaha, & the Concentration game! :} woooo. it got so damn funny!!!!

Monday
FIRST DAY OF CAMP OFFICIALLY STARTED TODAY. woke up quite early and walked all the way to sports complex to bathe. cold showers in the morning are the best! :D then some of Progcomm decided to be fake freshies and tried blending in with the new generation. :} buttttt, apparently i failed. ;o it was tiring to try and be fake you know. :o oh my goodness, sound so cheem. okay. but nevertheless, i got to mix around JUST THAT LITTLE BIT. wooo, NAUTILUS HOOK! :} shoutoutshoutout!

then it was lunch & the FMS Gameshow prep, ARE YOU SMARTER THAN A NINJA?! I was quite a sad picture up there wasn't I? Charissa did a GREAT job hosting the show, as did Marinne! I didn't host because I was scared and self-conscious. it's a long story thing. Anyway, I think the gameshow, although they may say it was boring and shit, but IT WAS OUR IDEA AND A DAMN UNIQUE ONE AT THAT so PROGCOMM FTW!!!!! Then we had lunch, :o around 3. & we went to prepare for nightwalk? i thought it would be scary. ;( i remember tying waterbombs before nightwalk though. yup. then I SAT ON A TRUCK, FOR THE FIRST TIME EVERRRRRRRRR!!!! Or at least for the first time I remember. :} wooooo, so fun to feel the wind rushing through your hair. eesssh. anyway... that isn't the point. The nightwalk started realllllllllllllly late. & our station was sad. :( And I got dissed. :o Stupid.

But anyway, I think we slept quite late. AT THE SQUASH COURT. WOO FOR US!!! :D Woke up quite early, was disorientated as well.

Tuesday

Amazing Race day! T'was hard leading a station, but I had help from Jane & Denise, lovely people! :D The lightning alert went off 2 hours into the game, so we had to call it off. Honestly, i think i did a better job than at trial camp, but i still don't think it's good enough. I've never really taken up many opportunities to lead/take charge, so it's a new and unfamiliar position to be in. The freshies were really co-operative though, so it was good. I just think the game needed to be improved on. Got dissed again, for some reason unknown to me. If only people could all be nice and happy in this world it would be a much more beautiful place. but no, there has to be tension and unfortunately, dissers. but 'nuff said about that. The WALK THE PLANK part of the Amazing Race was by far the BEST STATION EVERRRRRRRRR!!!! WOOOO!!! It was so drag queen-esque. Mostly guys dressed up as "pirates", but it wasn't much of a pirate costume because lots of skin could be seen! :o Hahahhaa, and then they did a strip tease, and pwhoarrrrr, i think PROGCOMM ROCKED THIS!!! the runway idea was awesome! :} & then it was lunch? oh wait, we went to wash the canvas mats and started getting soap and water on everyone.... that's when i think my phone died but ho ho new phone!!! :D then we went to prepare for final clash i think, which was WATERBOMBSMANIA!!!!! The game didn't really make sense, because it started getting personal and that wasn't very nice but i wasn't in in all the drama so i only heard bits and pieces.... but whatever, i think we had fun letting out some pent up energy! fish egg- like jelly & EH AH EH AH OH OH!!!!!! i wasn't as hyped up as the rest of them were, which was... sad, because i wanted to be.

then it was shower and dinner, then we headed over to FMS to the HANGAR for the groups performance and GL performance! awesome shitszxxxx the Gl dance. :D Got a little sad for me, because it always does when people thank their Gls and whatnot. Then it was mass dance and cheers, and the PARRRRRRRRRRTEH started! Obviously, did not join in the party. I'm not a dancing person. or a clubbing person. It makes me think that I don't know how to let loose, how to have fun... It got kind of awkward for me. Ky was there, stoning... wasn't into it. I guess I did want to join in, because I felt I was being left out... I felt like the odd one out y'know? But I was really scared of them judging me. Either way, it was kind of a lose-lose situation. Somewhere at the end, I didn't know what came over me, when they grabbed me, I just started jumping up and down for a while, but I wasn't feeling happy or anything, I just felt... weird, like, I wasn't myself. I was thinking of Socpsych and how conformity happens and all that group shit. It just felt weird, and strange and not me. I don't know how to put it across. But that's basically it. Weird because I wanted to join in, but I felt obligated to stay where I was? Angry because I wanted to join in, but I couldn't, didnt' know how without feeling self-conscious.

I know you might think i'm a mess, yupppppz. so it was about like 12 plus before we headed back for a briefing and we ordered macssssss, so sinful. okay, and then it was sleeeeeeeeeep!

Wednesday

I woke up and smelled toothpaste, but i was really NOT WOKEN UP YET, so it was kind of vague. I thought i smelled it but I didn't know if it was what I smelled that kinda sensation? Yup, so after i really WOKE up, i realised I had toothpaste on my hands, sleeping bag and jacket. At first I was like, did I put that there? Did this happen when I brushed my teeth last night?
Then later on I realised that someone did it to me, and I wasn't the only one! Lots of us got pranked. Sob... so sad, and i slept through the whole thing!!!! such a heavy sleeper... but anyway, washed it off, and sigh, was quite tired, because the strain from all 4 days were starting to catch up to me. So we had to clean the hangar but there wasn't much to clean & we had our prata breakfast there, and wooooo, Prize award ceremony started, we were THANKED... or rather "thanked". and yay camp was overrrrrr... but I think I really lost it. Lunch was a sombre affair, and it got better only after I left.


I really can't say more. I don't know if I'm a great friend, or even a good one. You know how I see it? People have friends, like this, pair thing going on? Like you can have this friend you can count on and talk to and whatnot? I don't know. I don't knowwwwwwwwwwwww. I'm just being stupid here, so forgive me. Places places. I'm sad and don't know what I'm saying anymore so okay, bye.

i've seen some of the David Archuleta videos, and he's SO ADORABLE! I wish I could've met him. He looks so genuine and nice and everything. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

videos laterrrr.

xxxxx

Conscientious

(Work)
Work ethic, get the job done and done right, strong morals and values, loyal, perfectionist.


Hard work: The Conscientious person is dedicated to work, works very hard, and is capable of intense, single-minded effort.
The right thing: To be Conscientious is to be a person of conscience. These are men and women of strong moral principles and values. Opinions and beliefs onany subject are rarely held lightly. Conscientious individuals want to do the right thing.
The right way: Everything must be done "right," and the Conscientious person has a clear understanding of what that means, from the correct way to balance the checkbook, to the best strategy to achieve the boas's objectives, to how to fit every single dirty dish into the dishwasher.
Perfectionism: The Conscientious person likes all tasks and projects to be complete to the final detail, without even minor flaws.
Love of detail: Conscientious men and women take seriously all the steps of any project. No detail is too small for Conscientious consideration.
Order: Conscientious people like the appearance of orderliness and tidiness. They are good organizers, catalogers, and list makers, and they appreciate schedules and routines.
Pragmatism: Conscientious types approach the world and other people from a practical, no-nonsense point of view, They roll up their sleeves and get to workwithout much emotional expenditure.
Prudence: Thrifty, careful, and cautious in all areas of their lives, Conscientious individuals do not give in to reckless abandon or wild excess.
Accumulation: A "pack rat," the Conscientious person saves and collects things (storing them in orderly bundles), reluctant to discard anything that has, formerly had, or someday may have value for him or her.



Type Percent
Vigilant 43%
Solitary 14%
Idiosyncratic 39%
Adventurous 32%
Mercurial 19%
Dramatic 44%
Self - Confident 33%
Sensitive 29%
Devoted 33%
Concientous 56%
Leisurely 44%
Aggressive 38%
Self - Sacrificing 25%

i;m booking in for camp at 3pm tomorrow. ;( so please don't miss me! haha, i am half looking forward half dreading camp because of a) the night walk b) sleeping overnight. Okay, so I'm shit for a camper even though i've been to quite a fair bit of camps in my Gb days. STILL!!! i love sleeping at home ok, it's the best place in the world. I haven't even started packing eeek!!! i'll be skipping up on the chance to meet my beloved David Archuleta because i don't think it'll be very responsible of me to just ask for leave to see him. I'll be torn up inside, yes, but it's an opportunity that I will have to miss. :( Don't worry David, I'll see you some other time!!! :}  Oh yes, but I'm still nursing a flu!!! howhowhow. what if the freezing air-conditioning makes me cough like at home? then i'll be disturbing everyone and they'll hate me! :o I'll need water. & tissue. & so many more things I don't want to think about.

i remember something i dreamt about on thursday night, but forgot to remember it and blog about it yesterday. it involved something about running a race and then i opened a fridge which had like... TONS of chewing gum. You know, it was seriously weird. Oh wait, there was these guys in the house as well, and they were making themselves feel at home which I did not like and one of them even went to the kitchen and made himself instant noodles to eat. Ah, that was the part that got on my nerves so I think I went up to him and said "WAH, SO GOOD HOR, MAKING NOODLES IN MY HOME..." or something sarcastic you know! But then there was another scene where I was at the race or whatever it was, and I wanted to go the other way because there was a McDonald's. 

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I have an unhealthy obsession with waffles and teh tarik.
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