we're wasting memories

Thursday, July 30, 2009 12:28 pm

i did this before but oh well.

Goldinuniverse.com

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.

You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.

Everyone has to compromise at times and circumstances are such that at this time you are feeling the need to do just that. Put all of your hopes on the back burner and let matters flow for a time - forgo some of the things you want. The good times are just around the corner.

You are on tenterhooks and appear to be extremely nervous and upset. You are bored and you feel that life has far more to offer than this present day mundane existence. The way that you feel indicates that you have the need for a responsive and understanding relationship. You are prepared to follow up any opportunity which may present itself. However you are very choosy and you refuse to be swept off your feet unless integrity can proved to be 100% genuine. Therefore you are holding back, keeping your emotions in check because before you let down your guard you have to be sure. You are too trusting and you have no desire to be hurt again. You are responsive to conditions around you - but forever under control.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

I think the last part really holds true. I'm scared. scared that i will not be able to accomplish anything that i set out to do. Scared that i won't become the person i want to be. scared that i will never realise that dream of mine.

Okay now my head hurts again. 2 days MC for fever. -__-

Tuesday, July 28, 2009 10:37 am

i'm currently in school with nothing to do because lecture got cancelled.

the least that i can say is that i managed to get some work done, but it wasn't much. i am pretty much uninspired right now. & i've been having a bad week so far. i know right? first day into the week and already it smells like it's going to be one shit of a week. :( i don't like weeks like these and i wish i could just skip it but i don't think that would be nice because i'm dreading next week.

next week is going to be a shitty week too! wow, 2 shitty weeks in a row. i've got many presentations next week and you know ever since i've taken speech comm, i thought there wouldn't be any more presentations for like... years. apparently i've been living in a "la-la-la, no presentations none, nada zilch world".

oh well. i think my mind's giving up on me so i better leave this for another day.

i swear i'll update on my harry potter trip k? :)

Monday, July 27, 2009 10:18 am

i'm done! :) i handed up my media management today! the weekend was basically occupied by MM MM and more MM. :( but i'm so glad it's over. like finally. but there's still the presentation!

GAH!!

k, newswriting is starting; talk soon i have loads to tell you! :)

Sunday, July 26, 2009 5:02 pm

OMG, my blogger is back. I LOVE YOU BLOGGER.

I won't desert you, but you scared me for a while with no create post editor. :(

<3>

xxx

Saturday, July 25, 2009 12:50 pm

wow, awesome, i can't fix blogger back to what it was before. thanks man. i think i might have to switch from blogger to something else. dangshitbiscuit.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009 11:29 pm

too much going on these couple of weeks, so forgive me if there is a lack in posts. i'll be back soon. xx

Saturday, July 18, 2009 12:07 pm



		I will marry Danny Jones.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Singapore in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 0 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Black Mazda.
		I will spend my days as a Magazine editor, and live happily ever after.

OMG THIS IS AWESOME! EVERYTHING I IMAGINED IT TO BE! Moreover, NO KIDS. YES!!!!

& Magazine editor!!! wooo! Best of all, I'll be with the awesome guy below! :D

A girl can always dream right?

Thursday, July 16, 2009 9:58 pm

oh my god, my day today started out horribly. :( well first things first, I was transcribing the Press Conference (Monday) and finished only at about 3am. Then I started work on newswriting, which really wasn't much. It was 3am in the morning, my brain wasn't functioning well! :( So I kind of gave up after an hour and then thought I could sleep for like 2 hours before waking up and getting ready for school and whatnot.

When I next opened my eyes, I saw that the sky was brighter than usual. Then I looked at the clock. Millions of shits and whatnots came into my mind and flew out of my mouth. It was 7.45am! I was supposed to be in school at 9am. I was thinking, if my mom and dad were here, this would never have happened. I wouldn't have slept at 4am, wouldn't have woken up at an unspeakable hour, and wouldn't have not taken a shower before leaving for school. I feel sick if I don't take a shower before going out. It's just gross, no? :/

So anyway, I was hurrying and everything. 15 minutes later I was on a bus. I think I was kind of like functioning on autopilot then, because I really wasn't thinking straight and I was only focussed on getting to school on time. I would've taken a cab, I almost did... but being the stingy person that I was, I decided to risk it and take a bus. It was just agonizing, because every traffic light was bent on going against me today. Red. Red. Orange. Red. OHMYGOD.

Lucky I reached in time, but then I was like... would I have been early if I took my time too? I could've been late for a few minutes because the teacher was sort of late too! Still, I was so dang tired and out of sorts. I did some stuff that I wouldn't have normally done. :o I was kind of on a crazy weird high.

At least we did well for Advertising. :) I was so afraid!!! Like literally, when he walked over to our group, the butterflies in my stomach were on overdrive. Then he remembered he hadn't discussed the media schedule with the other group and went back. :o Anti-climax much? I think we're pretty much on the right track though, which is good. Some minor changes here and there to be made. :)

& I really wanna watch HBP! :( But I don't know if I'll have the time though. Meh, and I feel really guilty for taking time off to relax, because I have newswriting to complete and also management and omg all the 40% tests :( Oh well, it'll have to wait. I really need a break from my monotonous life, or I'll go crazy. :(

Tuesday, July 14, 2009 11:37 pm

Yesterday's press conference was seriously quite an eye-opener. I mean, it probably isn't the same as a real life one, but it was a good simulation of it I suppose? That, minus all the camera flashes. I think if everyone were taking pictures, the speaker would've been blinded. How do celebrities COPE?! My sympathies go out to all of them. It's so hard standing up in front of a lecture theatre filled with 100 over eager students and talking for more than an hour. How much can one have to say really? Well, at least I think I won't ever have enough to cover more than 5 minutes haha!

Anyway, I would've liked to ask a question but I was pretty much bummed because what I wanted to ask were already asked. :/ I guess I could've thought up one on the spot or rephrased my questions but what has been done is done. Can't sit around and mope about it can I?

I really want to write a good story, so what's stopping me right? I guess I always feel this way, so insecure about what I do and I'm really affected by everything going around me. It's not a great place to be in, let me assure you; but I guess everyone has things that they are really jittery about. I want the recognition, I yearn for the acknowledgement. I think I need this reassurance that I am good at something, at least. That I have not been wasting these past 17 years of my life doing zilch. Seriously, my thoughts are all jumbled up, messed up. I think incoherently. :o

So yes, TVProd was also pretty interesting I guess, if you're into TVProd. Haha, there was a guest speaker there as well, and aside from the mike volume being too loud for my liking, it was a pleasant experience. Chat & Demo coming up, how how how? Omg, I should not say that. I should rephrase:

Chat & Demo coming up, we can do it! Somehow the word how repeating itself thrice does not bring up nice happy related shizz.

Canteen 2 lunch, back for MRM, which was okay. Management ended early so I had like 1 & a half hours to spare before French. Ended up playing Ky's phone game. :o Omg, I have to admit that game is pretty awesome, for a phone game. Haha.

French was like, seriously LATE. The teacher was late, and we were already waiting for so long, it felt like forever seriously. Almost gave up and went home. I've been having instances where I feel like giving up lately. Ugh. But learnt some new stuff, got a test in 2 weeks? To be or not to be good in something, that is the question.

Today I was hurrying out to school and I got on the bus. Slept almost all the way through, not bothering to check my phone for the time. When I climbed the hill, saw the clock at Blk 52... 9.05am I was like OMG, I'M LATE! I guess it was a good thing in a way, not checking for the time? It saved me from getting a faster heart rate than I already had from climbing up the slope haha!!! & I went into class and EVERYONE was there. Almost everyone. It was so lucky he hadn't really started!!!

Makan-placed, pretty nice. MRM was easy.... got a personal update on my progress; now I know I have to ace the final proj & test to score an A. OMG. wait, that's not right. it's OH YES I KNOW I CAN DO IT!!!

Stoned in school for 4 hours just for Ky & Alan to finish. Angella bullied me during that 4 hours. Yes. She hit me cos I said Kimbum or whatshisname was ugly. Cute meh? I did manage to get some MM research done I guess. :/

Ate for the first time at Sakae Sushi! Omg, I think I've been secretly wanting to look at the conveyor belts up close. So fascinating! & I don't know if they all knew I hadn't been to a Sakae before, but they certainly looked surprised that I didn't. Oh c'mon. I don't eat japanese that often... and when I do it's not at Sakae. My sis on the other hand does eat it quite a bit. Hm...

But yeah, taking sushi from the conveyor belt is fun. DUH!

Played some racing at the arcade after. Ha!!! When was it last that I saw your faceeee? Haha, randommmmm. When was it last that I played a car game huh!!! Youth, where haveth you goneth!

Okay not a literature person but whatever!

So now I'mma go get some rest. It has been a tiring day and it's bound to be a tiring week. :(

1:06 am

there is huge pressure right now to do even better than i have ever done. ;(

& i can't lose my focus, or let my tendency to procrastinate tempt me.

i guess at times like these remind me, that i've got to keep my feet on the ground.

Saturday, July 11, 2009 10:40 pm

I JUST SQUANDERED TWO DAYS OF MY WEEKEND AWAY. OH MY GOD WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!

Thursday, July 09, 2009 11:19 pm

oh my god, i have been very lazy and a bad blogger. :(

but nevertheless, i'm back for a post and here you go! :)

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Monday was alright! Lectures were fine, we ate at eh... Canteen 2! :)

Yes, and then round 6 plus I went for FRENCH!

French was fun. :)

Isn't that a short summary! :p

Tuesday was advertising! I really paid attention, or tried to at least.

I think my dad drove me before heading to the airport!

had lunch at Makan Place yay! Finally one where our group was all present! :)

wanted to save some money so i ate at the zhichar stall but it ended up costing the same as getting noodles... and for Ky it cost more!

I had TEH though so okay!!! :)

then we went to play TABOO!!!!

omg, Alan & Ky really very mean, call me mushroom head. >: (

then it was MRM where we dealt with numbers, like in EPIC PROPORTIONS!!!

obviously i exaggerate a little, but it was manageable! ;)

i think i went home after helping Ky pass some time away woooo.

Wednesday was TVPROD & MM TEST.

TvProd was spent studying for the MM test! haha, because the other group was doing their interview show and we basically had nothing to do.

So yeah, I spent 3 hours in the studio reading up on MM

& when it was time for the test I realised I did not read up on IPTV. :(

But we saw some badass videos for the Chat & Demo show we'll be doing soon!

Omg, it was seriously painful to watch ahahahah!

MM progress is okay I guess. :)

& today! I woke up pretty early!

Had to get ready for newswriting!

I think I like newswriting, but i'm so scared for feature writing.

I don't know how to describe stuff with all those bombastic words. :/

but Miss Koh was really nice today! :)

She bought the class Banana cake from the bakery at the Atrium! :o

WOOOOO.

then hung out at Makan Place for the 1 hour break before heading to Advertising.

Then some of us went to collect our CAQUIZ, & got some valuable feedback.

& i hung out with Amanda at Makan Place to have lunch and to chillax.

I had to spend 4 hours in school just to go for netball.

I hate staying in school.

I never get anything done!!! :(

Well I did post at Lj... but that's hardly an accomplishment! > : (

Netball was pretty fun though! I actually ran a round quite fast! or at least i thought i was fast.

but i was so out of shape!

& the FBTs i wore were the shortest ever!!! They were not mine if you were wondering why I'm freaking out. They were my sister's.

Should've looked carefully before taking them, oh the horror.

It was majorly uncomfortable!

Okay, so i should be sleeping now.

I don't wanna think about all the deadlines I'm having in end July/August. :(

Sunday, July 05, 2009 1:53 pm

oh my, this week has been one of the best so far. what with Tom announcing that he did some phone interviews with Singapore, which probably means that he knows of our existence. & also him hoping that they'll come out here soon, which probably means that THEY WILL, because look what happened to Brazil, and Australia and America and whatnot! :) I am a very happy girl.

Yes, McFly can make me THAT happy and contented with my life. I really do love them. :D

Okay, I'm going to like, rot away... since I do not have Youth Day. :(

Saturday, July 04, 2009 12:23 am

THIS HAS GOT TO BE THE BEST FRIDAY IN MY LIFE!

check this out, I came home from Mediacorp (12 plus) and when I logged on to Twitter, I saw this:

LIKE OMFG OMFG!!! I NEED TO FIND OUT WHAT INTERVIEWS THEY DID!!!!

Was it like a magazine one, or a radio one or oh my god. :)

he says " HOPE WE CAN GET OUT THERE SOON. "

I mean, if they ever plan on heading out to Australia, they WILL just stop over at Singapore really innit?

It's just LOGIC. PLAIN SIMPLE LOGIC.

GAHH!!!!!

I love McFly.

I seriously just up-ed my love for them by 12678134787264723581273918193476816472517234913486 times. :o

Okay, I don't think I can sleep after this. :)

Thursday, July 02, 2009 9:59 pm

Finally, I have time to blog again! Haven't had much of sleep and rest these couple of days because there were quite a few deadlines to handle. Okay, not THAT many deadlines, but one pretty important one that needed lots of research and brainpower.

So now that I have gotten that tiny bit of what i call my life back... :) Time to update innit? School first perhaps?

Well, so Monday lectures were like the same old same old COLD. There was Advert deadline though, and we had lots of stuff to do. I'm so glad deadlines are at 5pm and not like early in the morning like 10 am or something. It really does help! But we managed to get everything done in time! Being back in lectures, I've never really realised how taxing it is to spend the whole day in school. Especially when there's a French test waiting for you once you finish lectures. :( Well, I guess I pretty much can say bye bye to my A... I don't think I did much for the written, but I tried right? :/ The oral was like between me and a classmate, so it was SUCH a relief!!! I was dreading talking to the lecturer one on one! & we had time to prepare, so it wasn't all that bad. He even said BRAVO once we finished, although he wasn't really paying any attention to me when he said that so that might be some cause for concern. :/

Tuesday was Advert. It was pretty interesting, the topic that was featured. I think I work better when I just listen and take notes instead of having the notes in front of me and letting me highlight them and stuff. :/ Weird. So lunch after at Alumni with Angella Ky & Alan. And then Angella left for her TVProd class and KY & Alan & I went to the Games room to play chinese chess ahahahahah. Got thrashed. :/ Haha, left Ky and Alan to go for MRM, which was okay, I mean, MATH is... MATH right? meh. & we got back our Questionnaire assignment, 1 mark away from an A. How disheartening. We'll try harder though! I'm keeping my optimistic and positive outlook because that's what will get me my first A in Mass Comm, I hope haha. Had a short meeting after class for TVProd... and MM later on... which left me pretty much pissed off. Amanda & Enna are really nice though, so I don't care. :/

Headed home to finish up newswriting, and with the help of NESCAFE! I managed to stay up till 3.30 am without feeling so tired. Not that it's GOOD, but... at least I got my work done right? & I also managed to last the whole of WEDNESDAY without feeling AGONIZINGLY exhausted. :/

Wednesday was supposed to be the day of our filming of the interview, so we headed to school early. I tried my best to make a good flash banner but it didn't work out in the end. What a pity, it was really nice too. :/ But there was lots of panic when like, the guests came. Vanessa Lim from Polo Boys, this show from Channel 5 that'll be showing soon, & Benedict Goh, who's in The Ultimatum on Channel 8. They were really nice people, but I really didn't interact with them much, it was THAT intimidating. I know they're just people, but they're kind of up there for me. :/ I don't know... but the filming went over by 50 seconds, because I couldn't cue the host properly to end. :( I really shouldn't be doing what I did. :/ Got back our Financial test, which was open book and all MATH, yay!

My mom suggested a walk after dinner round the estate... and so we walked. Should've brought Danny500 out to take some night shots, but I forgot. ;/ WHEN WILL I USE DANNY500? Stay tuned to find out.

Today was newswriting tutorial. I must keep my questions succinct, period. Got back poll assignment as well, which surprised me like, totally. I'm still doubting... :p & then we also got back Writcomm? Surprise surprise. :o & also got back Advertising Ad Analysis (yes we did get back loads of assignments today. :))

Yay, so now I am enjoying what little "break" I have, and tomorrow I have to go to Mediacorp for a recording (to view!) Gee... Mediacorp. I've never been there before, and suddenly I'm already there once and going to be there for a second time. :s

haha, okay guys, later!!!

zxz