My birthday is in 3 days, and all i can think of is all the assignments that are going to be due in the next couple of weeks. it's so draining just THINKING about them. How to complete? I really hope that the next birthday will be spent (DURING INTERNSHIP SOMEWHERE FAR AWAY WHERE I'LL BE REALISING MY DREAMS) quite nicely. :) Oh well, but dreams are dreams, until we try to turn them into reality with action.

Okay byebye.

Oh my gold! I haven't updated in five days! Well, this past week has had its major highs and lows, of sorts.

Monday
The craziest Web Design assignment was due today, and I was rushing out the website I was supposed to create during the weekend. At least I think all the links work! I haven't touched anything Web D related ever since I handed in the assignment envelope. Haha, but I had to go to school early to buy a blank cd and envelopes. I think being alone is sort of... scary, but then again, it gives you the freedom to do things spontaneously, and not having to think about other people for once. You're not caged up, and you can live life at your own pace. But to be lonely... Nobody wants that, do they?
Anyway, Ky crashed our lesson again... & at that point of time, we were stressing out about our Feature Writing assignments... because I hadn't found my interviewees yet / they hadn't replied me.
French was okay... I have a test this coming Monday... must start practicing now! :(

Tuesday
Probably had some highs and lows that day. Woke up early for lecture day... during the morning lecture period of 9am to 1pm... my interviewee replied! So I was pretty high for a while! I went all "YO WASSUP MAN" to random acquaintances. But it was alright la... George Clooney tv advertisements for Nespresso can be quite cheesy, but he does look fit!
Lunch at Makan Place with the gang sans BFG aka Eugene. Everyone was too distracted with FA1, and also worried I guess. Myself included. Then headed to Ourspace for a bit, and then PR. Everyone was also rushing their Web D for those who had lessons the next day. I am glad that at least one assignment was over for me, so I could concentrate on the next one. My timetable ain't that bad after all! :)
After evening lectures, went to radio studio to practice the whole On-air presentation thing. Even mentioning it now makes my stomach flip over, really. It is that scary, and I really want to do well!!! I always thought if I don't get to be a writer, I can always be a DJ or something! Haha. But the practice didn't do much for me in the end.

Wednesday 
STARBUCKS DAY!!! :D Went to Vivo early round 10 30 to get Starbucks with my mom! Also got the Belgian waffles to try too! Not too bad, but I was already in a rush, so it didn't taste as good I guess. The coffee was just coffee la... haha. Still!! It's so cool to hold a SB cup in your hand and go about your day. It feels... special!
There we go! Starbucks! :) But I was sort of a little late for class but then there weren't many people anyway... (assignments remember?) So we went through a mock test, and I wasn't exactly prepared but then I never am. I was so nervous my hands were shaking, but the temperature was really low as well so that kind of contributed I guess. The moment I sat down, I probably blanked out. I pressed the wrong shit, didn't know what to say... Let's just say I failed in my eyes. :( Must. Practice. More!
Left feeling quite sad. Joined SM at Ourspace to come up with some FA1 shit that was due on Thursday. The sunsets at Ourspace are mega bloody awesome! Just look at it!!
Oh anyway, went home feeling quite sad, because had to finish writing, but I managed to. Went to bed at 3am luh!












Thursday
My mom sent me to school today! :D So I was early. Story was pretty much approved  but I did some adjustments, before heading for lunch, then went to radio studio to rush out the printing and shit. Went to SIM to print and I have never stepped beyond the food court into the campus itself, so I got lost with Nafisah haha! The printing was also quite muddled up... but cheap woh! Colour page one for 70 cents!
Handed up, headed for Commiss. I was the only one there for a while with the tutor... I wanted to talk, but I didn't know what to say...? :/ Tutorial was interesting though, realising where our stereotypes stem from... sigh.
Then home sweeeeet home. I could finally spend a day without worrying about deadlines... until today.

Today
Woke up round 11am! Then headed out 1130 to Ritz Carlton for a buffet lunch to celebrate my cousin's PSLE results. Didn't bring my DSLR out though... oh well. Would be quite rude too if I was just snapping away wouldn't it?
Marina Squared later, then Suntec-ed. Nothing much la... but yeah.

Pictures from my sister's phone some other time.

Bye!

Now I know I've been a bad bad blogger these couple of weeks, but I would like to add that it has been the worst couple of weeks in poly history for me. Well, I guess I can't "coast" through life huh. If I am finding it bad NOW, imagine what will happen in time to come?

I've always wondered what will happen in the future, if there really is one... after 2012. hahahaha. Anyway, all these daydreams about being a successful magazine editor (like in the movies, it always looks so easy) and fantasies about bumping into the so-aptly-called Prince Charming over at a Starbucks outlet just... doesn't cut it in the real world. That is the harsh reality, and the real truth. However much I keep denying it (which I am still doing by the way). I guess everyone needs some kind of escape, some kind of faux world to dwell in spiritually... so that they'll feel protected from the evils of the world we actually live in. Sigh, do you understand?

Even right now, after I've finally completed my Web Design assignment, and I should be feeling all light-headed and happy... I'm actually thinking "What if the teacher doesn't like it?" "Do I like it?" "It's okay, but it's actually kind of ugly, oh my god I'm not going to get a B for this!!!" All these worrisome thoughts just plague you constantly, even after it's all done and done. Gotta let it go, like Vanessa Hudgens is singing right now (Walk Away)...

If only... haha. See what I mean? We are trying to find ways to kid ourselves, to just cut off all relations with our problems and issues, and the root by the way, is obviously ourselves and the way we handle our REAL lives. Okay it's getting pretty hazy where I'm at right now... in my mind? I don't know what I'm saying anymore. Shall go to something less depressing.

It's been raining quite a bit these few days, and just the other day in school (Thursday) it rained so hard the whole school was flooded. Well, parts of it!!! It was pretty cool wading in ankle deep waters (NO LA I DIDN'T DO IT K), it was pretty cool seeing PEOPLE do it. hahaha. But even trying to avoid the waters was difficult... had to get a little wet in the end. The canteen was pretty awesome.



See what I mean? Waterfall!!! :D Too bad I wasn't there to see it!
I don't know whether I should like rainy days, or hate them...

Okay, I shall leave now, will blog more later when I can get rid of Dreamweaver/Flash in my head.

Oh my god my life has been sucked out of me by school, and I'm hating every minute of it! Well okay, not EVERY minute... most of it though. I can't believe I just went the whole weekend without blogging about my sad mundane and redundant life! :( My right eye hurts when I blink now, it's so sad. Must be the lack of sleep and water consumption. I feel like these words are spilling out with huge hints of angst and deprivation of coherence and stability. I need to use more cheeeeem words yes? So much so that I do not make any sense.

Anyway, mom's birthday was pretty okay. Didn't get her anything, but treated her to a steamboat lunch, and I headed for school after that... Web D was not fun. Dinner was a treat from aunt at the corner shop round our house. And then there was cheeeeeezecake from tcc. :) I wanted to buy a cake, I actually went to Vivo after class to search for one, but it just didn't look too appetizing... Shall make it up to her soon, once this whole mess that is MCM dies off.

Tuesday lecture day was preeeeeetty alright, I mean, what can I say, it's a lecture day! I made that rhyme on purpose if you couldn't tell. It was awfully cold though, and I don't think I'm in the mood to think about my wardrobe these couple of weeks so I shall look like a complete mess. I digress. But whatever. Radio lecture was probably the most awesome because we had a visit from 2 Power 98 deejays who shared with us tips and stuff about being a radio presenter. They listed the requirements and I was like... oh no, there goes my chance! Haha, I am so not shameless, and I can't think fast... and I don't speak good... Sigh... Nevertheless, I shall hope.

Rushed out Radio project after class till about 9.30pm? The end result was pretty alright! I think I'm more familiar with Garageband coming out of this project, but I will need to learn more about it. :)

Today was RADIOOOOO. Some cock-ups with the submission of the project, but that was okay.
Then it came to the technical part, where we've got to learn how to use the mic and present and go on-air and stuff... There's a TEST in 2 weeks oh my god, and I think it's ON MY BIRTHDAY. ON MY BIRTHDAY. :|

After that, me and SM walked out together and halfway she was like I have a craving for... & I asked Starbucks? Hahaha, ended up going to Holland V excitedly together to satisfy that craving. What is heaven? Toffee Nut Latte on a rainy day. See how it rhymes again? It was sooooo good even though we couldn't find a place to seat in Starbucks and ended going to Burger King instead... OMG la, just pushing the door and stepping into Starbucks just felt so... awesome. You know the smell of coffee beans that just assaults your nostrils... that warmth that seeps into your soul... that atmosphere? It's like I've been deprived of something for so long hahahahahaha. I sound like an addict but I'm not. I feel that Starbucks is a luxury of sorts, so I seldom have it, that's why when I really do go get a drink there, it feels so special, so euphoric and... out of this world. Totally like heaven. I'm not exaggerating. :D
But anyway, I bought the Starbucks passport! 6 drinks for 30 bucks or so. I'm gonna be drinking loads of Bux soon!!! ;D The Toffee Nut Latte for me (which was orgasmic in a non-orgasmic way, yougeddit?) and Peppermint Mocha Frapp for SM. I don't particularly like Peppermint that's why I didn't like her drink :p But I foresee myself drinking more HOT TOFFEE NUT LATTES! They should totally make it a regular on the menu! :p We talked until 6 plus some more ahhhahaha!

Okay, that is all. Starbucks has been the highlight of the week so far, so I shall keep it as that. Peace out!

xxx

Right, now that I have some time, I might as well do an update. Life has been so freaking lousy these feel days. Well, I've been feeling kind of snappy and everything aka PMS. Wow, what a way to sum it up right? See I am being sarcastic. What is happening to me?! I do not like this person I'm becoming, whether or not it's temporary or permanent, whether or not it is because of stupid reasons. I am NOT like this. Where did I really go to?

Anyway, Monday was a LONG DAY. The IS conference for A Woman's Worth was seriously long, and I mean, it got me thinking quite a bit about women and their rights, but my FA1 is still hanging precariously by a thread... because I don't have any interviewees. :'( But the lunch was awesome, so much food!!!! I would think there were a lot of leftovers.

Web D at 3, and then I had French whuuuuut. Have E-learning next week for French! but a test coming soon too oh my geeee.

Tuesday was lecture day, quite short since two lectures were cut. ^^ lunch at SIM... you know how lectures can be. Angella's mac crashed unfortunately... which reminds me I have to back up my files. Oh my god I sound so mundane. :(

Wednesday met up for radio to discuss stuff but we mostly discuss other things other than radio ahha. Not to worry though, we're having the interview today! (Friday) Still have lots of things to do though DAMN.

Thursday Feature Writing was just sad because I don't think I passed the test. I also consulted with the tutor on my FA 1 story but I DON'T HAVE INTERVIEWEES. Why is my post all about schoolwork and how I'm so stressed out by it? I'm becoming a cynical world-hater.... prematurely. I'm not supposed to turn this way before 60-70!!! >:( Went to the library to do some research for Commiss, and after headed for Commiss class, which was pretty alright. X)

Netball drained me emotionally and physically. Home for porridge and beansprouts. <3

Now at IS which is effing redundant if you ask me but still have to do it. I don't understand why we still have to come to school for 2 hours when all we do is sit and do NOTHING.

SIGH. neverminddddd.

I think Taylor would make a great Bella! :o

I think Taylor would make a great Bella! :o

You gotta love Taylor, she's like my role model now! :)
How cool is it that she's barely in her twenties, but already got to host Saturday Night Live?! Not many people have that opportunity that's for sure.

Keira Knightley in an advertisement for Domestic Violence.
I really think the concept was awesome, and at the last part where the camera dollies out to reveal a made-up setting of a kitchen, and then the tagline or whatever you call that is "Isn't it time someone called 'cut' ?" It is so apt in that situation. Brilliant brilliant ad. Kudos!

Legolas Rap


this has got to be like, the best thing ever?!
HAHAHAHHA.
Legolas love! Spread it! ;)
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Jennette McCurdy | MySpace Video

love it already. John Mayer!!!! :D plus Taylor sings backup vocals in this, although it's not exactly THAT obvious, but WOOOO, I love collaborations!!! :D

x

awesome awesome opening Katy Perry! Kudos to you!
& i like how twitter lets you customise the video sizes now with just a click, so I don't have to keep changing it now! ;D

It is terribly exhausting feeling like I do, and I don't want to be feeling this way. But I obviously have pride, because I just can't take that step down and start to apologise to people. I find it so hard, and I guess sometimes we all feel that way right? I have to learn to let go of this feeling because it's mentally and emotionally dragging me down. I'm wrestling with the demons within me, and you might think that sounds funny but my mind is in turmoil, you just can't see it. I know myself best, and everytime I think about it, I reprimand myself. "Why, why are you thinking that way? It's not right! Can you just let go of it already and move the f on? It's no use thinking about it anyway you shitty stupid person!"

Then maybe today, being the worst day of 2009, was punishment for me harping on things that should not----------- AWESOME AS FUCK. MY POST DIDN'T GET SAVED. AND I WROTE SO MUCH ------------ I can't be bothered with this shit that is my life anymore.


1. I was late for school.
2. I stepped onto mud, and almost slipped in it.
3. My slipper got stuck in mud, so my whole foot was muddy.
4. I got to the wrong level for class. Level 6, and the toilet was helpful.
5. I got to level 4, and the note that the tutor left was to go back to the previous class.
6. Level 2. Tension tension tension.
7. Walking to FMS, slipped again, awkward position, only one girl behind me. Probably laughed until explode.
8. All alone at Plaza Singapura, nobody to eat lunch with. Walked aimlessly around.
9. Lunch crowd. Sembawang music shop so messy and crowded. Stayed a while but did not find anything.
10. Raining, so floor was wet. Outside Plaza, I slipped again, but did not fall, thank god.
11. Missed bus twice. Then went to City Hall. Tried to find something to eat but couldn't.
12. Sembawang music shop there was okay... found Tank's second album. Made me feel a little less gloomy. $2.50 after discount yes!!!
13. Funan-ed. I got myself comfort food in the form of apple pie and banditto pocket!
14. I came home, ate, chilled. Watched Xiao Zhu at 5pm on Ch U. Awesome laughing session that made me forget some stuff.

Now I'm really tired and I really don't feel like doing anything.
Bye.

Damn, 4 straight days without blogging... I guess I was busy and procrastinating as well. Somehow I feel so uptight these days, I don't want to waste time on stuff that is useless, which I seem to be very good at doing...

Anyway, Thursday I had netball after a long tutorial day! Feature Writing was pretty cool, except for the grouping part. I don't understand why groupings are always the most difficult to settle. If only everyone is proactive, and awesome, we wouldn't have problems sticking to each other. :/ Ah well, part of life innit? So yeah, PR was cool too! I'm trying to participate more actively, but it's quite unnerving for me. I mean, having your opinions and thoughts heard in class in front of everyone is just... and when you can't think of anything to say when the teacher expects you to... that's the ultimate awkward, embarrassing situation for me.

Tried starting on Web D assignment, which I foresee the worst of all horrors of assignments. I can never do much work in school. Or even at home for that matter. This sucks. Why can't I just stick to it and finish it off so I can take a break right? :/ My attention span is just as short as my fingernails now.

Comm Issues was alright, the assignment sounds pretty fun.

I love netball!!! XD

Friday, IS day! Was pretty stupid, we must contact the relevant people soon! Gah!!! So much work so little time.
Met my mom at Ion Orchard!!! Her first time there, haha. We went to have lunch first, at the food court. I had the egg tarts again! It was so good, but really expensive oh my goddddd. & BO LOR BAO *hints Hillary ahahahah*

Then we walked around, My mom actually got me STARBUCKS!!!! :D Toffee Nut Latte Frappuccino Omggggg. I don't remember how much it cost last year, but a Grande size cost $7.40!!! >:( I'm pretty sad that it was so expensive. But!!! It's so gooood! :D My mom said it was like Nescafe plus whipped cream. HAHA, which I guess it actually pretty much taste like that! :p went to Uniqlo, wanted to get this jacket, but hesitated since my mom was hesitating... then walked some more.. to Borders! :D Wheelock Place does not have enough rubbish bins, that's all I've got to say.

Took me a while to get used to their new layout! I got the Princess Diaries book!!! & also... I found that magazines are cheaper at Page One! :D Awesome.
In the end my mom bought some t-shirts from uniqlo because it's really good material... & i got that jacket for my sis and i to share! Though I think I'll be using it for Radio! :D

& yes, we went to Taka too!

Saturday was spent mostly on Web D... then I took a rest because the lightning was so scary and played Scrabble! :D Then I watched my beloved Taiwan drama! Jiroooooo<3
I sound like a fangirl there but I really am not!!! I just find him cute and the cinematography was cool! Then after I watched Amelié of Montmarte, for French on Monday. The movie was lovely! The guy was cute as well! ;D

Today, lunch at the corner shop, not as good as before! :( Kept watching Taiwan related videos ahhahaa! I'm starting to regret not having Chinese songs in my iTunes. I should learn to embrace my Chinese side don't I? I think Tank, David Tao are my favorites right now, but Tank more so because he's so amazing!!! :D And his life story is so sad... about his heart surgery and all... I'm going to get his album to support him!
& Jiro!!! :D

Okay, I shall stop squealing. But really go listen to Tank! :D

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