Under London skies...
The problem is, do I want it bad enough?
Yes, I haven't posted in a gazillion years. Sue me. I seriously want to make my university life the best it can be, but I don't think I'm approaching it in the right way. Perhaps I'm someone like Seely Booth in Bones (a crime show I'm trying to get through six seasons of...not my typical favourite genre but beggars can't be choosers). It was brought to my attention whilst I was watching an episode where he was taken to be someone as liking to stay in his own comfort zone. I shall not give you the context - but the gist of it is the comfort zone. Hiding under the ridges, never really taking the risk to run through it. I know I have to have the right mindset, the self-assuredness before I plunge into that social experience, but it's just not working. I need a bigger jolt than me psyching myself: Next year will be my year!...
It's never going to be unless I take action.
Do I want it bad enough - exchange. London. 6 months. Hindering me from taking off: an academic reference. I need a tutor to recommend me for the exchange. For them to do so, I'll have to stand out in class innit? That's the only way I see them actually agreeing to recommend me for something like this. I'm not having the easiest time trying to speak up in class, all the attention, the eyes on me just freaks me out. I can't do it - not unless I stop thinking about what others are thinking of me.
Skin-skin-skin. Need to have it thickened, is all.
The conversation's getting stale
If you won't point it out, then I will