Je déteste attendre...
I hate waiting...
The moments leading up to said event that I've been waiting for... possibly for the last 19 years... see me in turmoil. Half-excited, yet that much more not being able to detach myself from the familiarity I have built my life upon. To uproot and plant myself in foreign soil (puns all intended). Not as much scared now as I will be when I cross the immigration border and look back one last time.
My mom was telling me of the time my aunt flew to America all alone a long time ago. She was so excited that she forgot to turn back to look at the people she was leaving behind. And it wasn't as if it was affordable to fly back on a whim like it is now (still isn't actually). It may be funny now, but I get it. The excitement can overwhelm you on the first few hours, until you get accustomed or unaccustomed to it all, and just want to jump back on the next flight home. I was asked if I would actually turn back and get a last look.
For the voices in my head that will tell me to turn around, I don't think I will. My reasoning is this: if I were to turn back, I would be looking at all the reasons to NOT go, and since I have already decided to take this step, there really isn't any point in reminiscing.
That and I think looking back will make me bawl harder.
Haha, and for all the plans for my LAST week... I'm practically incapacitated by a flu/fever/headache/cough/sore throat. 好来不来，偏偏这时候才来，真是莫名其妙。。。
The neighbourhood cat I'll be missing when I'm gone. Apparently it's only 7 months old and was abandoned by heartless cat owners.
Had sushi buffet with Ky, Angella, Weiying and Alan on Saturday night I think? Before that we played LAN for an hour (Ky & Alan) It was damn fail haha, but I had fun! The sushi buffet was an epic disaster, seeing as how we ordered more than our poor stomachs could handle, and had to mash stuff up to hide so that we wouldn't be charged for wastage... I was thinking if I could have taken some salmon home for the little kitty, but no...
Friends!
Friends!
Salmon which I do not eat.
Friends!
Me enjoying my bacon wrapped asparagus, it was delicious, don't understand why nobody liked it.
And friends! Angella took this, or was it?
Anyway, fab week fab week!
The conversation's getting stale
If you won't point it out, then I will
